#spectrumstuck lore

There are so many angsts she can have

The fact her brother disappeared for no reason, she blames herself for it because she thought he just. Got sick of her like her goatdad.

Her entire mental breakdown on earth, and her mental health and self image is at an all time low.

The fact her child, her miracle wriggler, fears her so much for reasons she doesn’t even know about. Just another thing she’s screwed up in her life.

The fact that June, someone she trusted and confided in about her intrusive thought and nightmares, knew everything and didn’t tell her for so long. She knows why Caliborn would hide information from her, and even when she learned that Calliope knew too she couldn’t be too mad at her, but she trusted June. Maybe she just got her hopes up that June actually trusted her too.

And Lumris running out of the house when it learns the truth, cursing out June and Calliope for everything. The most angry she’s ever seen her kid be. And he runs off into the night, where he can’t be contacted or found. It was always too good to be true, a life where she could just be happy. This was what was always going to happen, she just was too stupid to realize all of this would never last.

Chat I cannot express enough how much we had to fix these guys because what do you mean one of the only normal ones was Kurloz?

But for the lore of their existence, they’re the beta troll’s older siblings. They were raised by the same lusii that raised their younger dancestors. Not all of what I count as the Dancestor Group were raised alongside their beta counterparts, two were separated from their younger siblings in some way and never met them until they were adults. Despite this, the Dancestors used to all be very close, though by the time they’re adults the friend group had suffered irreparable damage. It was out of everyone’s control, but a certain few don’t see it like that.

Mituna thoughts

Mituna is a big fan of his kids, Lemvio and Pivero, so very proud of his kids :)

His relationship with Sollux is. Complicated a little. One of them got just a bit too much internalized shit that caused a rift in their relationship. As an adult, Sollux has done their best to make things right, and Mituna just wanted his sibling back in his life. But it was certainly a time Mituna doesn’t like to remember.

Oh everything about Gamzee’s first crashout was a rude awakening for Karkat. It made him realize how terrible he acted towards Gamzee, how much it hurt her, and it all crashed down on him in one single moment. When Gamzee started isolating herself from everyone except Tavros and Acetia (and also Jane but that isn’t the point), it made Karkat even worse because he had no way of properly apologizing to her.

It kinda stuck with him for the rest of his life, even when the two of them got together he still felt so guilty about how he used to treat Gamzee. At times he would go into self hating spirals about how he’s still terrible and nothing would ever change that, meanwhile Gamzee’s forgiven him for that years ago.

Eridan thoughts, the fish

Get that fish away from their shit ass brother immediately. Get her therapy and estrogen will save her.

But I will take this time to discuss how Acetia and Eridan’s friendship even gets repaired because I still love it.

Eridan’s been working on themself for a good while, before they came out as nonbinary but when they realized they’re autistic. They go to Acetia to genuinely apologize, and Acetia is not friendly at first.

But Eridan originally plans to never bother Acetia again, part of them wanted to just kinda isolate themself without really knowing it. But Acetia doesn’t want that, he doesn’t want Eridan to outcast themself from their friends. Besides, for once Acetia can see that Eridan is being genuine, that everything they’ve said about their internalized ableism is true.

Considering they’re the first to get together, Gamzee probably confided a lot in Tavros during their whole mental spiral on Earth (the first one at least). Tavros actually was patient and kind towards Gamzee, she will always be open to Gamzee talking about how honk feels.

Tavros has probably tried to teach Gamzee how to play card games like Pokemon before. Gamzee doesn’t exactly get it like Tavros or Radzur, but she does her best. Tavros never gets upset at her for not understanding the rules, sometimes it’s more fun to see how Gamzee interprets the game.

I put her in therapy which gave her a gender crisis in the process, she is now a bigender lesboy.

I’m gonna need this horse to unlearn the harmful rhetoric she was taught because gog knows she needs it. Being in a place without the hemospectrum probably helped a little.

Him and Nepeta can hold hands and be happy as a treat, and also occasionally have nightmares where Gamzee brutally kills them. Which is weird because Gamzee would never do that, still feels super real though.

So how was the clown when she first arrived on Earth

She would’ve been perfectly fine, but a certain human (I won’t name any names Dave hey who said that) had kinda sorta set Gamzee down a teeny tiny bit of a downward spiral. Said downward spiral kinda sorta worsened to the point where Gamzee had a full blown mental breakdown.

Everyone was horrified, no one knew what to do because they’re all children, Acetia was trying his best but he was so scared that he would lose his sister.