Dear July 26, You're special to me. You'll always be very special to me. It was on this day eight years ago that I decided to try something I had never tried before. I decided to share my life with someone. I decided to let someone in, to love someone without boundaries, to experience a lifetime of sharing my heart and soul with someone whom I didn't even know would really end up meaning the world to me. You're when a thirteen year old let go of all her fears and decided to fight for, give her best and worst to, and love someone with everything she had. Even if they weren't quite enough. You're when a thirteen year old embraced the true meaning of love, commitment, honesty and purity of being a good human being. Sometime between the first 26th and the following seven years, I let go of everything holding me back from giving every little piece of my heart and soul to this human, even the not-so-good-or-appealing-parts of my life. So, after eight years, today might not be a special day anymore of our togetherness, today might even seem like my worst nightmare for the foreseeable future or even the rest of my life, but nothing can take away what 26th has always meant to me. A day of love. The day I decided to love. The day I decided that I wanted love, no matter how bad it might be on some days, that I chose love over everything that would come in the way of the love that I gave or received. You taught me that I had so much love to give that I could sprinkle it to the whole world and still have so much more to give. So I might not have the one love that I gave my everything to, but I still got love to give to myself, to people and nature, to every broken and every bitter part of the world, of me, for love might break me but it is what makes me a little better every single day. And so, you will always be special to me, even if you break me when you knock at my door every year, again and again, empty handed and forever lost. -arushimithal #writer #mentalhealth #writingcommunity #poet #writing #words #tumblrwriter #specialdates #26july #love #writersofinstagram https://www.instagram.com/p/BmJUl6fHtbU/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=mie6d0gbfo0x
