tw for p*do*ll*a discussion and sportasteph
While I don’t anticipate this being necessary, I still feel a need to tell you guys something that I did recently bc I don’t want there to be any confusion if it ever comes up again. This is not meant to be a callout post for this person. Rather I want it to be a statement of my behaviors and actions (which i do not regret). To fully understand the events, it requires context, and so this does come off as a callout post very strongly and I apologize to you guys and to ltofc for that.
I ran across @lazytownoutofcontext’s blog from a tumblr suggestion. Their blog appeared entertaining, so i read the about page in anticipation. When I found out they ship sp*r**s***h, I was very disappointed. The more i reflected on it, the more angry and passionate I got over that ship in general and how pe**ph**ic it is. And bc they were the only fan of that ship that I knew of at that moment, I unconsciously channeled those emotions towards them by sending them this:
There is no healthy way to ship Sportasteph. Aging up Stephanie is just an excuse your brain is using to justify the ship without calling it what it is: pe**p*i**a and inc*st**usn*ss considering they're practically like father/daughter.
This was not sent anonymously. I don’t see it as hate myself, but I can see how it could be defined that way if you want and I accept that. The simple facts are: I hate pe**p*i**a, and that message was sent with high emotions running.
About 17 hours later, I got word of at least a couple of people receiving anon hate. And bc I had no idea what kind of person ltofc is, i got really worried that they might have sent those. I was afraid that what I had sent was a prompting event for these hate anons and so then I was indirectly responsible for them. So blood rushing and heart thumping, I sent that second one:
“I don't know if it was you, but if you're sending hate anons to people in the lt community bashing sportarobbie and using stefan's name bc i ‘bashed’ sportasteph, send them to me, not them.”
I didn’t want anyone else getting hurt bc of me. Turns out that that was never the case.
Some time passed and I heard no response. The next day I thought to send it again over dm bc people tend to notice and reply to those sooner and more often, and yes they eventually replied to that one a day later:
“10sportacus10: you’re not sending anon hate, are you?
lazytownoutofcontext: I do not I rarely look up to this page of mine tbh. plus I never send any anon messages. never ever.
10sportacus10: oh ok, thanks for responding
lazytownoutofcontext: no prob. I hope you will find out who that is.”
Note that this has been 2 days after I sent the ask with the same question. Then just today, 2 weeks later, I got a reply to the ask i sent, which is too long for me to care to type out here. I’m sorry, but here’s a link (and an image in the link at the end):
https://lazytownoutofcontext.tumblr.com/post/173007820103/i-dont-know-if-it-was-you-but-if-youre-sending
Mb ltofc thought I sent this recently, but i did not. And that catches us up to now (4/14/18 8:30pm est).
After all this, I see that it was all a waste of time. I think it’s best to block and move on bc a sp*r**s***h shipper is only going to make excuse after excuse to try and justify the ship when no matter the reason shippingg sp*r**s***h is pe**ph**ic. Period. By that i mean romantically or sexually. really anything beyond friends, mentor/student, father/daughter, or any other platonic relationships of that nature.
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if there are any questions, i will answer them tonight, but after that, no more. I am letting this go and moving on.