#sowan

Day 44 | Amelita's Self-Portrait ✨

okay i haven’t show any of y’all my oc’s yet so here we go:

SOWAN

sowan was basically a princess in her world, and she loved every second of it. she can be very sassy but also loves her five sisters, and will fight for them if needed. as for her father, she liked him at first, but then she started to feel like he was a little to forceful on her, and it turned out she was right. her father made her and her siblings do horrible things to innocent people just to give him fame. she then rebelled the island with her sisters and shrunk their size since they were taller than skyscrapers! however, a huge storm came and separated the girls apart, with them never seeing each other again. sowan lived alone for years, feeding off of whatever she could find and fought anyone who tried to stop her. one day, she began to fight a small bald gremlin who little did she know was actually kaos. she played it off as just another enemy defeated, but that’s not was the skylanders and master eon thought of it as. they praised her, and master eon offered her a spot as a skylander. he didn’t know what element she would belong in though, but after long thinking they both agreed that she would be newest magic skylander.

malam ini saya perlu menangisi hidup saya dan hati saya sendiri.

“jangan membuat tujuan hidup dari capaian orang lain”

setiap orang punya impian masing-masing, tidak perlu ruwet dengan capaian orang lain. kamu pengendali dirimu sendiri hidupmu mau dibawa kemana itu di tanganmu ikhtiarmu selebihnya serahkan pada yang Maha Pemberi Hidup.

tapi saya juga masih ruwet kok. gak tau kenapa akhir-akhir ini rasanya begitu. hatinya lagi konslet ya buk. nyeri-nyeri dihati gitu. liat temen udah ada yang mau pendadaran, liat temen udah ada yang punya usaha diusia sekita, liat temen udah wisuda. aku ikut seneng kok seneng banget. tapi dalam hati ada yang nyeri gitu. entahlah aku sedang sakit apa.

Malam ini aku habis di chat temenku.

(mohon maaf) temenku ini dia belum bisa melanjutkan pendidikan lebih jauh karena dia tidak bersekolah. dia bilang “ aku habis chat pak ihsan(nama disamarkan)” -pak ihsan ini adlah guru kami dan beliau baru umroh-

aku bilang “kamu chat apa”

dia bilang “Ya minta doa biar kita bisa sowan kanjeng nabi”

aku rasanya mengasihani diriku sendiri gitu. disaat diluar sana dan aku salah satunya ruwet liat capaian orang lain. Sampai lupa menyayangi diri sendiri. keinginan temanku yang bahkan aku lupa kapan aku punya angen2 mau ke sana. aku malu banget rasanya . :-(  

Padange ati

aku merasa jauh sekarang. jauh sekali.

Be loving towards yourself, then you will be able to love others too.

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