#sourceconnection

The more time passes, the more I feel the pain that I kept inside my body for so so long . All of the emotion has never been gone, because I never really released them. I kept them stagnant, i caged them, instead of letting them flow out as they flowed into me. It feels like I am looking at many shattered pieces of a mirror, being my heart, mind , body and soul. It shattered into many many tiny pieces and it is impossible to collect them all. I stare at it with an emptiness inside of me, feeling grief, pain and deep hurt. Just like this mirror, something broke. Something that is inexpressible with words, but stored in my heart. ‘This is not what I am’ I keep telling myself while looking at the many pieces of my heart. I see myself in pieces, in layers. I feel the multitude of myself and at the same time I feel emptiness. Is that what deep grief feels like? There comes a moment when the rage stops. The Moon is my biggest lover. My deepest Soullanguage. I spend many hours with her, looking at her, feeling her. Again and again, she teaches me that everything moves in cycles, in fluidity and vibration. Once again , she has taught me last night that solitude is tranquility, peace, my inner world. She feels everything I feel. I feel everything she feels. Together , we are moving in cycles, riding the cosmic waves. “We have always been connected through space and time, throughout so many dimensions and realms. You are never alone, no matter how deeply your grief and pain may be. I feel it all, so does the Sun. “ And I look at her, while I am standing here on Earth, while I am at my lowest, in the underworld of my soul, where my roots grow.  Where I feel my deepest darkness, she shines her clearest light, unravelling the most hidden parts of my Soul, my deepest longings, my purest form. She feels all what I am , she reflects all of the pieces of myself back into me. She knows them all. She connects them all. She holds me.

Release the pain. Release the grief. Release the hurt. We are flowing beings, fluid, vibrant, energetic, electric. We are all of it. And we are always moving on the waves of energy in motion. Are we drowning in ourselves?  It was the Moon that reminded me to feel into e~motion, it was her motherly presence that guided me, her balancing the ebbs and the floods of consciousness, as we are floating through the multidimensionality of our Cosmic Being.

I am allowing the energy within me to flow freely. All of what does not serve me anymore and cage me inside myself, I let go. I am not made to be rigid, I am fluid. I an unbound and free like a bird, my consciousness is like a bird. My soul is the Sea, the waves that carry me, the waves that are me.

~Blessed Full Moon Eclipse~~Feeling into it.

This is my prayer to the Moon, my biggest and deepest love. She is the pure flowing of my heartchannel and the radiance of my Soullight . I am deeply deeply thankful for all that she shows me and is yet to reveal, so I can recieve and release.

From my heart to yours.