#souldestroying

I captivated your soul

Drew you in with my charm

You’re addicted to me

Demanding and desperate

Now I have you

I don’t want you

I use you

Then drop you

Your hurt blue eyes beg me

I have no heart left to give

My soul was stolen

To another who broke my heart

I cannot love

I only use

Yet inside

A part of me weeps for you

And for my lost soul

I want you to hate me

At least then it hurts less

But to see you broken

The mind ever churning

Shadows of doubt

Lurking in the corners

At night they overwhelm me

Drowning my mind in blackness

Sadness pain grief hurt

Joy is choked by the tendrils of darkness

I hate my reflection

The insecurity which stalks me

How do I find my release

Escape this haunted life

I see temporary relief in you

But the savage exchange

Means deeper pain

Is it worth the passing ecstasy

Forget the spiralling black hole

Which will break me further

Enjoy the bliss

Stop thinking

Stop feeling

Embrace the pleasure

Time continues it’s maddening dance

Decisions must be made

You say I captivate you

Why

You say you’ll never forget me

Why

I know I’m different

But why

You draw me in

What is it about you

That tells me you’re mine

I want to own you

You want to possess me

I can see it in your eyes

I enchant you

Why

But once I have you

Will I dispose you

Or will I never get my fill

Either way

I’m damned to love you

Don’t be gentle with me

I don’t deserve that

Maybe you can find me

As I can’t find myself

And once you have

Abandon me

Only you

How haunting those words

My prison

Surrounded with ghosts

I try to break free

Yet none other captures me

Possesses my soul

It’s taken

I’m empty

Chained to a ghost

Who would ever seek me

Nothing to give

I rot in my prison