#sorry<3

@klancer-warrior, @sleepycheesecakeowo and @catsushinyakajima i'm sorrryyyyyy, your asks from the 200 followers game are not forgotten 😭 my wrists have just been acting up lately, so i've had to take a break from drawing... i'm going on holiday soon, so hopefully i can finish them once returned<3

Feeling like you aren't strong enough to face the challenges life has is truly heartbreaking, it can make you feel hopeless, useless. As if you have no space on this earth because what even am I here for? Failing at things that are supposed to be easy, not understanding things you're supposed to, needing more helps than everyone around you.. I still struggle with it, even after months of therapy at this point, years of pondering over what does worth even mean. I am starting school tomorrow, after having to drop out 1,5 years ago to depression. I am scared, terrified and frankly as of writing this I am crying and have been for the last hour. I want to relay just simply my own vulnerability. I am scared and I've been keeping that to myself a lot so I wanted to open up, to also express that a lot of recovery is also falling back down, sometimes harder than expected. However during my recovery I have seen that my fallbacks always give me space to grow, a learning oppurtinity and a chance to see what I still don't actually know about myself. Just like I will eventually get over this bump in my path, so will you with whatever you're struggling with.

my dad died sort of very abruptly on friday and ive been home with my family since tuesday (when he had to go to the ER) and now im planning a funeral with my sister. but im back at my apartment now for a few days and i think im coming back online:))