#sometimescryingisgood

Jo March (Little Women):

What a terrible feeling to love someone and not be able to help them.

I like the idea of something that can give you those feelings all the time. I want something like that, and then I look at Violet and think: There she is.

Sometimes, Ultraviolet, things feel true to us even if they’re not.

What if life could be this way? Only the happy parts, none of the terrible, not even the mildly unpleasant. What if we could just cut out the bad and keep the good? This is what I want to do with Violet– give her only the good, keep away the bad, so that good is all we ever have around us.

I look at all the days laid out until graduation and freedom and I feel a strange clutching in my head. They are only a collection of days, less than half a year, and then who knows where I go and what I do?

Last night is like a puzzle– only not put together: all the pieces are scattered everywhere and some are missing.

one thing i learned recently is that there is no shortcut in recovering or healing from something. you have to let your feelings be felt but not consume you. cry as much as you want; it's okay.