- NICO IS SO DEPRESSED AND IRON DEFICIENT THAT HE COULD LITERALLY SLEEP FOR DAYS ON END AND STILL WAKE UP TIRED

- WILL PUMPS HIMSELF FULL OF CAFFEINE AND GOES DAYS WITHOUT SLEEPING BECAUSE HIS SAVIOR COMPLEX CAUSES HIM TO FEEL GUILTY WHENEVER HE LEAVES THE INFIRMARY FOR MORE THAN A COUPLE HOURS

- NICO GETS WILL TO SLEEP AND WILL GETS NICO TO WAKE UP AND GO OUTSIDE

⚠️If you’re so biased toward Bianca, don’t read⚠️

We’re a week away from tsats release, so I wanted to do a brief character study about Nico and his worst battles (occasionally worsted than battle gods, titans, and primordial deities). Be aware that I’ll don’t sugarcoat anything, and yes, I’m talking about Bianca, Jason, and Reyna (briefly Percy). I love them all, but that doesn’t mean they didn’t have some harmful impact on Nico’s life by THEIR CHOICES. Be aware of this before reading.

Nico is maybe the demigod with the worst case of abandonment issues out there (and there’s Annabeth). Our first encounter with Nico was this sunny, cute dork just to Uncle Rick, turning him into the little murder shadowy boy he’s now, but you take a moment to think about how the fuck it happened.

A few days ago, I saw this post that jokes about Bianca abandoning Nico. A few people lash at the one who posts, yelling at them just for literally taking quotes from Titan’s curse and using the meme template of a boy making a peace sign and banishing. People comment that Bianca doesn’t abandon Nico, how she wants to have a life out of her and Nico, and how valid she is for it. Someone goes as far as bring up their experience being the parent sibling and how exhausting it was to be so. Okay, valid points for y’all, but this affects Nico and his future relationships.

When all Artemis's shit happened, Artemis allowed Percy to come with her while [Artemis] was planning to ask Bianca to join the hunt. Grover and Nico weren’t allowed to follow them (using the lack of Nico’s knowledge about Greek mythology so Grover could tell some things). Bianca, without talking to Nico, takes the oath to Artemis while a chapter before just 13 pages before; Bianca tells Percy, Nico, and Dr. Thorn that they only have each other and no one else. Besides the fact Artemis and Zoe brainwashed their hunters to join them, Percy tries to tell Bianca to think it through before choosing. Percy could be seen as an early big brother (since Tyson), and yeah, Percy could be a little older than Bianca (just for one year). Still, he knows how this will be affected Nico (bless Sally for Percy being one of the few demigods with emotional intelligence, sorry but NO, Annabeth could be a genius, but her emotional intelligence is lower than Percy’s) in a wrong way.

It took Bianca 10 chapters to understand how her choice could affect Nico and decide to grab/steal a figurine to make amends with Nico (we all know how well that worked). Then BIANCA CHOOSE gave up her life to save everyone else. She was a hero, the biggest kind of a hero; she gave up her life to save her friends (even if she was the one that put them in danger). After Bianca’s death, Nico changes; not only did he lose forever (or at least at that time he thought this) the only person he loves the most in the world, but Nico realized he fell in love with Percy, that Nico noticed when even if he yells he hates Percy and wish Percy were the one who dies instead of Bianca he didn’t let any harm to come near Percy.

Then Nico learns his parentage and thinks maybe he could see Bianca one more time, but even if Nico calls and pleas she never shows up for Nico, an 11 yo boy this was his sister abandoned him again (for Nico, it doesn’t matter the reasons good or bad this was Bianca avoiding him). I mentioned before Bianca ended up knowing SHE WAS THE ONE WHO HURTS NICO, but as before, she couldn’t confront Nico, so she doesn’t answer the call, at least until Percy call.

At this point, Nico only knows his sister abandoned him two times before by choosing the hunt and now choosing not to answer him (even at first she didn't acknowledge Nico). In this dialogue, Bianca is rude to him; she forces Nico to face his feelings, and no, I’m not talking about his crush on Percy but his anger towards his sister. Nico was a boy from Italy in the ’40s. If you don’t know a thing about Italy over those years, this is something I could tell you family was important, the most essential and integral part of the being, and Bianca is forcing Nico to hate her to be mad at her BECAUSE IT WAS BIANCA CHOICE TO HURT HIM and this shit hurt Nico. We all mention Cupid being a piece of shit for forcing Nico to come out. Still, here Bianca do the same, forcing Nico to accept those feelings (that Nico absolutely is feeling but can’t accept by his beliefs and his love for Bianca). At this point, Nico forgave every abandonment (the three times Bianca left him behind and when Percy chose not to look at him at the end of Titan’s curse), and it won’t be the last time for him to accept people to leave him behind.

While Nico is looking for a way to help Percy, he also looks for his mom because nobody tells anything about his mother to him, even though it was until he tries to summon Maria gosht that Bianca allows herself to show in front of Nico to tell him to stop searching for his mother. Now this is another time we know Nico saw his sister; even if Nico spent a while in Hades kingdom, he just saw his sister until he tried to summon Maria. Actually, this is the only time he yells at Bianca.

Nico's grief and abandonment are so intertwined as one that he is grieving Bianca at the same time to understand why she could leave him behind quickly but trying never to blame her. Then the doors open, and he tries to seek Bianca and bring her to life to learn she decided to be reborn and finally left him behind alone. By choosing reborn, Bianca decides to lose her memories of everything, including Nico. Even if somehow Nico founds Bianca’s soul, she would never recognize him.

HOO brings Nico more relationships, not just he finally talks with Percy about his feelings and behaviors (that I want to read more about besides that little talk they had). He gained two sisters, a boyfriend, and a best friend, just to lose almost everything. Jason was the first one to tell Nico to risk and trust someone while he also made Nico stay in Camp half-blood (a place where Nico never felt safe or at home), partially telling him he wanted Nico to stay with him there only to choose left and go to school at the end of summer. Reyna, who acknowledged/addressed him as family, someone Nico trusts at the point of sharing intimate memories with and starts to see as a big sister, chooses to join the hunter (the ones who were practically part to blame in Bianca’s death). People who told him to trust left him behind the same way his sitter, who’s supposed to love him unconditionally, and yet chose other people rather than him. What’s so wrong inside Nico that the ones he loved the most decide he isn’t worthy enough? Now I don’t know if Uncle Rick or Mark will address all of this, but when (because we know for sure they will) Will and Nico get separate, I hope they didn’t let Nico go through these thoughts as I implied Nico didn’t handle grief to well, on the other hand, he always forgave people for left him behind I hope they don’t make Will be another love one that does the same to Nico.