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Fandom: Haikyuu!!  | Pairing: Kenma Kozume x Reader (gender-neutral) Rating: General / All Ages  | Word Count: ~3,200
Warnings: Tooth-rotting fluff
Summary: Kenma has never been able to fall asleep properly unless he's touching you â a habit neither of you noticed until you started living together. One night, past midnight, you're still chained to your desk finishing an assignment when a very sleepy Kenma wanders in, blanket in tow, and settles himself directly into your lap without a word. A quiet, domestic story about small gestures, sleepy honesty, and the particular kind of love that doesn't need to be spoken out loud.
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Kenma's dialogue in blue â Reader's dialogue in pink
The apartment was quiet in the particular way that only existed after midnight â not silence, exactly, but a hush, like the walls themselves had settled in for the night and were waiting for everyone else to do the same. The only light came from the desk lamp in the corner of the second bedroom, casting a warm yellow circle over a laptop, a mess of papers, and a mug of tea that had gone cold an hour ago.
You didn't notice the cold tea. You didn't notice much of anything except the cursor blinking at the end of an unfinished sentence, and the small, insistent voice in your head that said just one more section and then you can sleep.
You had said that same thing to yourself three sections ago.
The apartment had been yours and Kenma's for eight months now, long enough that the hum of his console from the living room and the particular creak of the floorboard outside the bedroom door had become as familiar as your own name. Long enough that you thought you knew every one of his habits â the way he answered questions three seconds too late because he was still finishing a thought, the way he peeled the label off any bottle he drank from without realizing he was doing it, the way he said "mm" instead of "yes" about seventy percent of the time.
What you hadn't expected, what neither of you had expected, was this: that Kenma Kozume â quiet, self-contained, perfectly capable of spending six hours alone in a room without needing another human being to so much as glance his way â could not fall asleep properly unless some part of him was touching some part of you.
He hadn't known it about himself either. Not at first. In the beginning it had looked like coincidence â he'd fall asleep with his foot against your ankle, or his hand resting near yours on the mattress, and you'd think nothing of it. But the pattern kept repeating. If you turned away from him in your sleep, he'd shift until some point of contact was reestablished, unconscious and unhurried, like a plant turning toward a window. If you got up in the night for water, he stirred until you came back. If you weren't in the bed at all â
Well. That's how you ended up here, past one in the morning, hearing the soft scuff of socked feet in the hallway.
You didn't look up right away. You were mid-sentence, chasing a thought about methodology that would evaporate the second you lost focus, so you let the sound register at the edge of your attention and kept typing. But then there was a small sound â not quite a word, more the ghost of one, a sleepy exhale that might have been your name â and you glanced toward the doorway.
Kenma stood there in the frame of it, blinking against the low light of the lamp like it personally offended him.
He was wearing one of your old hoodies, the one that had been too big on you and was now comically oversized on him, sleeves swallowing his hands entirely, hem falling nearly to his thighs. His hair â bleached blond fading into black roots, always a little untamed â was in complete disarray, flattened on one side from the pillow and sticking up in odd tufts on the other, like he'd been wrestling with the sheets instead of sleeping in them. Which, you suspected, he probably had.
He had his blanket. Not the shared duvet from your bed â his blanket, the ridiculous soft gray one covered in small embroidered cats that his sister had given him years ago and that he pretended, unconvincingly, not to be attached to. He was dragging it behind him by one corner, the rest of it pooling and trailing along the floor like the train of the world's sleepiest king.
"Kenma," you said softly, equal parts fond and exasperated. "It's one in the morning."
He didn't answer. He rubbed at his eye with the back of one sleeve-covered hand, a slow, unhurried gesture, the kind of thing a child does when they haven't yet learned to perform tiredness for anyone â he simply was tired, without artifice, without adjustment for an audience. His eyes were half-lidded, gold catching faint and dull in the lamplight, and when he finally focused on you properly, he blinked twice like he was recalibrating.
"You weren't there," he said. His voice was rough with sleep, quieter than usual, the words slightly slurred at the edges. Not an accusation. Just a fact, stated the way he might mention the weather.
"I know. I'm almost done, I promise. Go back to bed, I'll be there soon."
"Mm." He didn't move. He also didn't argue, not really â arguing would have required more energy than he currently possessed. He just stood there, blanket trailing, hoodie sleeves hanging past his fingertips, looking at you with the patient, unblinking persistence of a cat that has decided where it's sitting and is waiting for the human to catch up to that reality.
You went back to your typing, thinking that was the end of it. It was not the end of it.
You heard him pad closer, sock feet silent on the wood floor, and then felt the drag of fabric as he draped the blanket â cats and all â over your shoulders and his in one motion, wrapping it around the two of you like he was tucking a shared secret into place. And then, without any further ceremony, without asking, without so much as a "can I," he climbed directly into your lap.
"Kenmaâ"
"Mm," he said again, which by now you understood to be a complete sentence in his language, one that translated roughly to I have made my decision and it is final.
He curled himself against you with the unthinking economy of someone who has done this a thousand times and expects to do it a thousand more â knees drawn up, one arm looping loosely around your middle, and then his face tucked directly into the curve of your neck and shoulder, nose pressed against your collarbone, exhaling slow and warm against your skin. His hair â soft, mussed, smelling like your shared shampoo and the particular warmth of sleep â brushed against your jaw. He was heavier than he looked, all long limbs gone loose and unresisting, a solid, sleepy weight settling into you like water finding the shape of its container.
"I have three more paragraphs," you told him, trying and failing to sound stern.
"Okay," he mumbled, already sounding half-gone, voice muffled against your shoulder.
"That means you have to get up."
"Mm-mm." A small shake of his head, more felt than seen, his hair tickling your chin. "'M comfortable."
"Kenma, I can't type like this."
"You can." A pause, then, with the particular sleepy stubbornness of someone building a case they haven't fully thought through: "One hand."
"Oneâ" You almost laughed. "That's not how typing works."
"It's how it works now," he said, and you could feel, more than see, the shape of something smug pulling at his mouth against your shoulder, even half-asleep, even barely coherent. He always got like this in the last stretch before sleep took him properly â looser, softer, occasionally, bizarrely, more talkative than he was during the day, like exhaustion dissolved whatever quiet reserve he carried around during waking hours and left behind something unguarded.
You sighed, but it wasn't really a complaint, and you both knew it. You shifted slightly, resettling him against you so his weight wasn't pressing directly on your typing arm, and reached for the keyboard with your free hand.
It was, predictably, a disaster. Your right hand was pinned beneath the warm, boneless weight of Kenma's arm where it had settled over your stomach, and every time you tried to extract it gently, his grip tightened by some small unconscious increment, like his body was negotiating with you even while his mind had already surrendered to sleep. So you were left typing one-handed, hunting for letters with your left, the sentence you'd been chasing all evening dissolving into a slower, clumsier version of itself.
The preliminary findings suggest aâ you typed, then stopped, deleted suggest, retyped it, deleted it again.
"You're overthinking it," Kenma mumbled against your shoulder, eyes clearly still closed, voice thick.
"You can't even see the screen."
"Don't need to. You always overthink the easy sentences." A yawn cut through the middle of the sentence, small and involuntary, his whole body giving a little shiver with it, the kind of full-body yawn that makes a person's toes curl. "'S the hard ones you're good at."
You paused, fingers hovering over the keys, something warm unfolding in your chest that had nothing to do with the document in front of you. "That's oddly perceptive for someone who's asleep."
"'M not asleep." This was said with the deep, wounded conviction of someone who was very much most of the way asleep.
"Your eyes have been closed for two minutes."
"Resting them."
"Mm-hm."
"I can hear you typing," he added, as though this settled the matter of his consciousness beyond all doubt. "I know what you wrote. It was bad."
"It was not bad."
"It was fine," he allowed, magnanimous even in his half-conscious state. "Not bad. Fine."
You laughed under your breath, quiet, and felt more than heard the small, satisfied huff of air against your collarbone that was Kenma's version of a laugh in return â no sound really, just a soft exhale and the faintest curve of his mouth where it rested against you.
You tried to keep working. You really did. But it is difficult to maintain academic focus when there is a sleepy, boneless Kenma tucked into your lap, blanket-wrapped, growing heavier and warmer by the minute, one hand slowly â so slowly you almost didn't notice it happening â sliding down your side to find your free hand where it rested on your thigh. His fingers curled loosely around yours, not gripping so much as including, the way you'd link hands crossing a street, except neither of you was going anywhere and he wasn't awake enough to be making the decision consciously at all.
You looked down at your intertwined hands, then at the crown of his head, the messy fade of blond into black, the small furrow of scalp where his hair parted crookedly from sleep. He was so still now. Not asleep yet â you could tell by the faint, irregular pattern of his breathing, the way it hadn't yet settled into the slow, even rhythm of real sleep â but close. Hovering right at the edge of it.
"Kenma," you tried again, softer this time, more because you felt obligated to make the attempt than because you expected it to work. "You should go back to the bedroom. You'll sleep better there."
"No I won't." His voice had gone thin and slow, words spacing themselves out like he was laying them down one at a time, carefully, so as not to drop any. "Bed's cold without you."
"It's not cold. It's July."
"Cold," he insisted, with the flat, unimpeachable authority of the very sleepy, for whom facts and feelings have temporarily become the same category of thing. "Empty's cold. Doesn't matter what season."
You didn't have a response to that. Or rather, you had several responses, all of them soft and slightly too vulnerable to say out loud at one in the morning to someone who was ninety percent asleep and would absolutely tease you about it in the morning if you weren't careful. So you settled for pressing your lips briefly to the crown of his head instead, breathing in the smell of his shampoo, and let your hand tighten fractionally around his.
"Five more minutes," you told him. "Then I really do have to finish this."
"Mm," he said. Which, again, could have meant anything. Agreement, disagreement, the simple acknowledgment that you had spoken words in his vicinity. You'd long since stopped trying to draw a hard line around what his mms meant and started just trusting the shape of the moment to tell you.
You went back to the one-handed typing. It was slow going â you had to backspace more than you typed, your left hand unused to carrying the weight of an entire keyboard's worth of work, and twice you elbowed Kenma slightly in your attempts to reach the far side of the keys, which earned you a small, wordless noise of protest and a slight, immovable shifting of weight that made clear he had no intention of relocating regardless of the collateral damage.
But somewhere in there, between one clumsy sentence and the next, his breathing changed. Deepened. Slowed into that long, even rhythm you knew so well from years â well, months, but it felt like years â of falling asleep beside him. His hand went fully slack around yours, not letting go, just relaxing into it, the way a hand does only when its owner has stopped consciously holding on and started simply resting there instead, muscle memory doing what wakefulness no longer needed to.
You looked down at him.
His face was turned into your shoulder, half-hidden, but you could see enough â the slight part of his lips, the soft, unguarded slackness that never showed up on his face during the day, when there was always some small tension held in reserve, some part of him keeping watch even at rest. Not now. Now he looked like exactly what he was: a person who had walked, half-conscious, out of a warm bed and across a cold apartment for the singular purpose of being near you, and who had found what he was looking for, and had stopped needing to look for anything else.
You thought about the assignment. About the three remaining paragraphs, the deadline that was â technically â still two days away, the small nagging voice that liked to remind you of every reason those paragraphs mattered.
Then you looked at Kenma's sleeping face pressed into your shoulder, his hair falling messily across his forehead, his hand loose and warm around yours, and you found, somewhat to your own surprise, that you didn't mind being trapped here at all. That there was something in this â the ridiculous cat-print blanket wrapped around both your shoulders, the too-big hoodie sleeves, the one-handed typing, the whole absurd domestic tableau of it â that felt more important, in that particular moment, than anything glowing on the screen in front of you.
You saved the document. You'd finish it tomorrow. You always did.
"Okay," you murmured, mostly to yourself, closing the laptop with your free hand and easing it shut with a soft click. "Okay. Bed."
Kenma made a small, questioning noise at the change in your posture, not quite waking, more surfacing briefly and sinking back down, the way a sleeper does when a boat rocks gently beneath them.
"Come on," you said quietly, shifting to stand, one arm bracing under him. "Let's go, sleepyhead."
"...Carry," he mumbled, not quite a request, more an assumption already halfway into being fact, his arms tightening loosely around your neck as you rose from the chair. He really was too tall for this, all long limbs folding awkwardly as you got your balance, but he'd done this enough times â or rather, you'd done this enough times, hauling him the short distance from wherever he'd fallen asleep to wherever he was supposed to be sleeping â that both your bodies had worked out an unspoken choreography for it. His head settled against your shoulder again, blanket trailing from one hand where he refused, even unconscious, to let go of it, and you carried him out of the office, down the short hallway, into the dark, quiet bedroom.
The bed, when you reached it, was in the state of chaos he'd apparently left it in â one side of the duvet flung back, pillow dented deep from where his head had been, sheets rucked up like there'd been a small, private battle fought there and lost. You laid him down as gently as you could manage, and he made a soft, displeased sound at the loss of contact, hand reaching blindly for you even before his eyes opened.
"Give me a second," you said, laughing quietly, peeling off your hoodie and setting your glasses on the nightstand before sliding in beside him. The moment you did, he curled toward you immediately, unerringly, like he'd been tracking your exact location the entire time even with his eyes shut, and tucked himself back against your chest with a long, low exhale that sounded, more than anything, like relief.
"There," you murmured, arranging the blanket â his cat blanket, now draped haphazardly over the both of you along with the duvet â over his shoulders. "Happy?"
"Mm." A pause. Then, muffled, barely audible, in the particular unguarded voice that only ever came out at the very edge of sleep: "Sleep better. Like this."
"I know," you said softly, brushing his messy hair back from his forehead.
"Hate waking up." Another pause, longer this time, his words slowing further, sinking. "Hate it when you're not there. Bed's too big."
"I'm here now."
"Mm." His hand found yours again in the dark, unhurried, certain, fingers slotting between yours like they'd done it a thousand times, because they had. "Stay."
"I'm not going anywhere," you promised, quiet, into the dark of the room, into his hair.
He didn't answer that. He didn't need to â his breathing had already gone slow and even again, his hand slack but not loosened around yours, his face tucked against your chest the way it always ended up, sooner or later, every single night, whether either of you acknowledged it in the daylight or not. You lay there for a while just listening to him breathe, feeling the small, steady weight of him against you, the warmth of the blanket, the quiet hum of the refrigerator somewhere down the hall, the ordinary, unremarkable sounds of a life you'd built together without ever quite noticing you were building it.
You thought, distantly, that you'd have to finish the assignment tomorrow. You thought that you should probably feel more anxious about that than you did.
Mostly, though, you thought about how his hand fit in yours, how it always seemed to find its way there even in his sleep, some quiet, unconscious part of him reaching for you before the rest of him had even woken up enough to know it was looking. You thought that there were a hundred small things Kenma never said out loud â not because he didn't feel them, but because this, this, was how he said them instead. A blanket dragged across a cold apartment. A lap claimed at one in the morning. A hand found in the dark, and held, without a single word needing to explain why.
You closed your eyes.
Somewhere in the dark, half-asleep, Kenma's fingers tightened faintly around yours â one last small anchor, set before sleep took him fully under â and then, together, in the quiet of the room and the low hum of the night, you both drifted off.
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