chp.43 made me feel unwell (positive). the intimate act that is noticing!!!! the attention that takeda pays to arita being so detailed, so devoted in clocking something as small as a half-closed up piercing. the way he treads around such a mundane topic. caring so much is a kind of tender terrifying thing; obviously he has all these worries about why arita doesn't wear earrings and if he's overstepping, but the crux of it (to me) is the saying it out loud. hey i noticed this about you, ive been keeping note of this tiny thing that's part of you, and i want you to tell me about it, if you want. that is so exposing that's. im unwell. and of course in the end there's no Particular reason that arita doesn't wear earrings, kemuhana has never been about melodramatic backstories. but yeah the asking—there's the curiosity and beside it the fear of rejection, that the attention takeda pays is unwanted.
but arita doesn't reject it. he says "if you want me to wear them, i will."
