#soaps journal

Second Part Here: https://www.tumblr.com/ghostofhiim/800640364604227584/soaps-journal-pages-31-43-from-the-call-of-duty

evening fellow pricesoapers i find this bit specifically very gay of soap

like “ooh! nikolai doesn’t help by always bringing round LADIES. WOMEN. they distract me and i have NO INTREST IN THEM. i’d much rather be sad and plotting revenge over my dead superior… i’m also going to obsess over the only thing i have left of him, and take the time to cradle said thing in my hands every single day. by the way, I AM STRAIGHT!!!”

also i find it very funny how soap somehow always ends up with nikolai taking care of him when something traumatic happens in his life 😭 e.g. him getting literal RABIES which causes him a phobia of dogs from then on, being nearly stabbed to death by shepherd and watching price nearly die AGAIN + the entire aftermath of all that

because like no offence to nik and i might not be right to assume this because he’s not really a character we know loads about, but if he’s anything like other men in this trilogy i can’t imagine he’s really the most emotionally intelligent?? 😭

like okay headcanon i feel like he’d feel sympathy for sure and want to help but it would just come out kinda awkward and a little unhelpful imagine being soap in this situation and nik would just be like “uh… so, my friend… do you want to hear some stories from the cold war??”

No, I’m not exaggerating. It’s in his journal. And yeah this is 09’s MacTavish, but when have we ever fussed about mixing the timelines?

There’s so much potential there and we waste it on silly jokes about Ghost being a cat. (Which are still valid because yeah. Yeah he is.) He tried to hide it from Price and Gaz. If he actually had rabies, then he was going to die either way unless he got vaccinated before he showed symptoms, which it looks like he didn’t. I

Get a lot of Roach appreciation in these love to see it he needs more love, love where Soap praises him in Cliffhanger and where Soap says he was happy to tag along with Price and Roach over the net and that Price took Roach under his wing like he did Soap so long ago🥺

But this one though really hit where it hurts the way Soap was so emotional and angry about Ghost and Roach’s betrayal with Shepherd and now he will kill Shepherd for revenge for the both of them. He really liked them they were his friends Ghost was his right hand man and he took Roach under his wing he’s been with them for awhile too and finding out someone he trusted murdered them without any hesitation really upset him and it was amazing reading and seeing how emotional he was.