Jax would read it once and only once and feel badly for it. He was all up in his head with jealousy, past hurts haunting this new love, and his resolve broke. He read it while you were in the shower and Jax immediately felt like an ass because...you love him. The pages of your diary are full of trust and love and worry over him on late nights and long drives and he feels so bad that he read it at all. He'll put the diary back, promise himself that he'll never do that again, and spend the next few days being extra loving and attentive. Anytime that memory pops up again, Jax will be really sweet to you again and again.

(sidenote: Gemma absolutely reads your diary and doesn't feel bad for it at all but she DOES get her feelings hurt over some of the stuff you write about her...but that's her own fault for reading it anyway)

Opie would read it and only feels bad if he got caught and you confront him over it. After all, he's your man and you're his old lady, so there can't be any secrets between you two, right? At least that's what the jealous monster from within whispers to him whenever Opie gets tempted enough to read your diary. He likes reading what you write about him, the good and the bad of it (the good because it's an ego boost and the bad because it allows him to see something from your point of view and correct himself) and what you write about his kids, how much you love them all. So he wouldn't feel bad unless you were mad at him for it really.

Happy would not read it unless something had happened to you. Like, you were attacked and left unconscious (so you can't tell him who did it) or have gone missing and the only thing he hasn't done yet is check your diary for any possible clues. And in that case, he would confess that he'd done it as soon as he could and, although he's not totally sorry (because Hap felt it necessary), he'll still apologize...and maybe tease you a little bit for all of the sweet things you wrote about him, as long as you're not too mad about it.

Tig would eventually have a peek but only because he didn't think it was supposed to be private (literally doesn't realize that people still write in diaries, it seems so old fashioned to him). He'd always seen you scribbling away in your little book but it never occurred to him that it might be something private until he actually did open it up (because he needed to write something down and the diary was the first thing he noticed) and read something and thinks...huh, maybe I shouldn't be messing with this. And he never does it again, not without your permission.

Juice would only read it if he started dealing with a lot of negativity/jealousy and he feels AWFUL. Like, scum of the earth levels of bad, but the guilt it gives him cannot stop him from doing it from time to time. Much like Jax, he'll silently make up for it by being extra sweet but he won't be able to stop himself from reading it whenever jealousy comes a calling.

Chibs does not read it and does not feel tempted to. After all, what does he need to read it for? He knows you so well that he can accurately guess whatever you're writing about (seriously, it's uncanny and you make a game out of it) and the one thing he asks is that you don't write about club business at all. Later on, he'll discover that you outright wrote false alibis for him just in case and, when it actually got him out of trouble, he's pretty pleased.

Kozik is tempted to read it and likely would, something he feels a little bad about. He struggles with insecurity, distrust, and jealousy fairly often and tried to talk himself out of it. But eventually, Kozy will give into temptation and take a peak. He feels badly for doing it but the ego boost of seeing how much you love him is too strong to make him truly regret it.

HI! you know, im also exited to see it. what i’ve seen so far (first five episodes, plus a mega ton of spoilers) lead me to believe its a sausage-fest of the tragic persuasion, but i also know gemma and tara are amazing characters, so im willing to hang aorund to dwell on that. plus - tara and jax literally are too much so far as i’ve seen, i wanna know all about what that is about 

also - the main thing that i am curious about seeing is how a series that is based on a tragedy evolves (or devolves?). like - i wanna see how the hell are things going to believably go from bad to worse. and i like the idea of this world self destructing. because this is basically organised crime - what the MC is - and i was facinated by the idea that basically what this show says is that this life is gonna kill you. that despite the fun and games and humour and posturing, you end up ‘dying bloody’ because that’s where it leads, no matter what. that there is no way for that kind of lifestyle to really be ‘happily ever after’. that its going to end in violence and death because that’s what fuels it. i find that idea interesting - as an overall theme.  

tho tbh i dont know how much critical thinking i will be able to aply to this. im totally watchign this too fast - i watched 5 eps in one night, im probably gonna finish the whole thing before the weeks is out of something and will only have this huge mess of thoughts in my head i wont be able to articulate BUT ANON - keep me company and message me whenever you like - it’ll be fun. we’ll both have someone to freak out with.  

Take a shot whenever someone says:

I'm so sorry bro/man

I love you bro/man

for the club

family

I promise (2 shots if it's Jax, 3 shots if he never actually delivers on that promise)

Jesus Christ

shit

shithead