#so whatever.

so all this to say. if I don’t have a job in December then I’ll fucking deal with it in December.

but right now, im fuckin DONE.

id 1: the moone flag, but with the elegraciae color scheme and symbol. it's 5 concentric circles, the top one shaped to look like a moon in the sky, and the second one shaped to look like the light the moon is giving off. in order, starting at the top, they are lavender, lighter lavender, pastel yellow, pastel pink, and a darker pink. the elegraciae symbol is a ribbon wand in dull pink and darker lavender.

id 2: the elegraciae flag, but with the moone color scheme. it's 6 curved vertical stripes, in (starting right) black, 3 shades of lightening dark purple, lavender, and lighter lavender. it has a ribbon wand in lavender and very dark purple.

end ids.

MOONELECATE: a neogender which is a combination of moone and elegraciae.

examples of moonelecate identity are:

elegrine lune-hood

illumon sier-hood

a gender which is elegrine because it is MOONIN, or illumon because it is ELEGIN

a gender whose elegrinity/lune-hood and illumonity/sier-hood are synonymous

can also be called 'ELEGRACIMOONE' or 'MOONEGRACIAE'.

Look. Everyone is just in various stages of just a kid, putting hard lines of "Legal Adult" and "Kid" are only gonna hurt you mentally. Don't get too caught up in your age and what you should be doing or who you should be by the time you hit a certain number of years old.

Aging isn't a race, it's an inevitability, it happens, but that doesn't really mean it has hard and fast rules like all 16 year olds should drive and all 18 year olds should be living alone and all 25 years old should be married. To be human is to be unique, ever changing, a fast and hot thing of life and love.

So no I don't have anything that got me over the fear of growing up, because it just kinda happens like everything else, and honestly I was never really scared of being older, I actually look forward to it personally.

My best advice to you is just to keep thinking of yourself as just a kid for as long as you need. There's no reason to force a mental switch from kids to adult the second your birthday comes around. You can still be just a kid at 18 or 21 or 37.