#skywap

family photo before the war.

Oh..starscream.

(I said I wasn’t gonna do TFP stuff which is why this ask has sat around in my inbox for two months but then I devised this. So consider this a treat but I probably won’t do any TFP after this point)

"Well, that's all for your check-up. A clean bill of health," Knock Out said, examining the datapad, "Unless there's anything else you need?"

Starscream looked at the doctor. Wondering if he should say anything. Sure, on paper he was fine, but there was something else he desperately needed.

He had been going through his old files and stumbled across a holophoto album. He had idly flicked through it at first, but then he spent hour going over the old photos.

He had found an old photo of Skyfire, his bondmate. So huge and yet so gentle, with arms that would carefully wrap around him and comfort him and hold him close. Starscream had never in his life felt more secure than when Skyfire was holding him. He fondly remembered all the evenings he spent just snuggled into Skyfire's arms. Then Skyfire had gone missing after that unfortunate mission they'd had together.

Then he saw a photo of his trine. Long dead after the fall of Vos. He had lost both of them in one fell swoop. He suddenly remembered how they would huddle and sleep together, normally in a sort of messy entanglement of limbs, often with Skywarp rolling around and then flopping his arm right over Starscream's face. But they had always been together, trines needed close comfort and contact and they were always there when Starscream needed comfort and affection, and then so quickly that had been torn from him.

He was a seeker, and seekers seemed designed to seek out physical touch and affection, from family to trines to bondmates, it seemed there was never a place a seeker could go without the constant reassurance of physical affection.

And now that was gone. He missed his trine and his bondmate and his sire and carrier. He was maybe the only seeker left. Some days he felt he wanted nothing more than to simply be held by one of them again. He chirped as he thought of those days.

He felt so desperate and lonely without it. He wondered if he could ask Knock Out for that. Just a simple hug. He felt that was all he needed. He wondered about asking.

But the doctor wouldn't understand. Grounders never did. He'd never be able to explain the simple comfort mere touch would bring without it seeming like there was something more there.

sorry....