Spiders In My Head: Visible vs Invisible Disability
I've worked for a lot of places now. All of them fire me for the same reason. "Time Theft" or "Unreliable" as if on the day they hired me I didn't tell them some variasion of "hey, if I don't sit down and ground every hour or so I forget things and it makes me panic." Every time they tell me, "that's fine just as long as you get your work done."
Funnily enough, I've never been fired for being a bad worker. I always get praised for my work, even. But when they realize when I've told them "I need more breaks" it means I need more fucking breaks they don't like that. Because they never agreed to me taking sit down time like they agreed to.
And what pisses me off the most? All the visibly disabled people that got off easy. The downs employees that got jack shit done. That I had to pick up for, that had worked there for years. The wheelchair ridden who worked at half the pace. The folk with nerve stuff going on that can't work without another person with them at all times.
All of them getting all the passes they want. But me, the person with the memory disorder. My wife, with adhd who struggles with larger workloads and organizing it. My friend, who's "functioning autistic" and needs far more instructions than most. None of us get shit. The second those of us with disabilities that can't be seen are disabled we're tossed.
I'm fucking sick of it. I'm sick of giving these scummy fucks more tax breaks because im on pwd. I'm sick of being told my accommodations will be met, only to be fired when using my accommodations. But no. We're just lazy. We're bad workers. Because despite being disabled, we can't get the same amount of work done as the neurotipical employee.
I want to be clear here. All my hate is towards the employer. Not the visibly disabled. They benefit from a system I suffer from, and that isn't their fault.
Power in anger. Victory in wisdom. I will not take this lying down anymore.