be okay
2012!phil
summary:Â everything around them seems to be collapsing and the stress is finally getting to phil
genre: angst sickfic fluff hgngdknlf
word count: ~1500
warnings: none, sick stuff. no vomito
a/n: I'm too tired to write one oops. pray 5 me
The stress was starting to get to Phil.
Things between him and Dan were awkward. Conversations felt forced and Dan had taken to sleeping in his own room now. They werenât arguing, though Phil would much prefer that over the awkwardness. He didnât blame Dan for it, as he was sure he was doing the same thing back. It felt like they had a million eyes on them now, and in a sense, they did. Phil ignored most of them, trying not to let them effect him, while Dan was fighting back. They were both far too aware of everything now and it had pushed a gap in their relationship.
Phil sighed, checking the scene he was editing again. The scene was obviously forced and lacked Philâs natural enthusiasm. He remembered the day he had been filming it, he hadnât been feeling too well. It had been happening more and more often recently.
Giving up, Phil saved the video before closing the program. He leaned back in the office chair, disappointment settling in him. Phil would probably have to refilm the scene, which meant more time. The more time Phil spent on videos, the more restless the fans became. He already had them breathing down his back about phan, he didnât want to deal with their complaints about the lack of videos as well. His head constantly hurt from the tension and he found himself unable to sleep well at night.
All the stress piled up in his stomach until it started to ache from the pressure of it all. But Phil didnât have time to deal with a troublesome stomach; he had other things to do, like prepare for the radio show, pay the bills, film the scenes needed for his video, and many other important tasks. He also needed to try to reconcile with Dan and have him come sleep in the same bed again. Phil hated the emptiness and not being able to cuddle Dan whenever he liked.
Phil got up and headed down to the lounge, where Dan sat editing a video of his own. He glanced up when Phil walked in, then returned to his video. Phil sat down at the table where the monthly rent was laid out, waiting to be read over. His stomach turned as he stared the papers down and he felt nauseous. Money always stressed him out and now even more so with their gained attention. It needed to be done, as much as Phil would like to pretend it didnât exist.
He had finished sorting everything out when Dan came up to him. Phil looked up at him and smiled.
âHey,â Phil greeted.
Dan smiled back, though it was forced. âAre you going to make dinner?â
The thought of food didnât sit well with Philâs stomach, but he figured heâd only make enough for Dan. Itâd be a nice gesture and hopefully Dan would take it as an invitation to start talking to Phil again. âSure. What do you want?â
âStir fry?â
Phil nodded, standing up to head to the kitchen. âOne stir fry dinner coming up.â
This got Dan to roll his eyes fondly. âDonât burn the house down. Iâll be editing in my bedroom if you need anything.â
Phil nodded and walked to the kitchen, pulling out the ingredients. While it was cooking, Phil leaned against the counter and rubbed his upset stomach. If things werenât so tense now, Phil would have gone to Dan and whined about his stomach. Dan would have made him tea and cuddled him better.
Now, however, Phil feared that the only thing that would result from going to Dan was another argument and Dan accusing Phil of being childish.
Phil quickly finished up Danâs dinner, not bothering to make enough for if he got hungry later. He dished the finished meal out onto a plate, grabbed a fork, and carefully made his way to Danâs room. Inside, Dan was sitting on his laptop, scrolling through some mysterious website unknown to Phil.
âHere you go, my good sir,â Phil teased, handing the plate off to Dan.
Dan gladly took the plate, frowning when he saw that Phil didnât have one. âAre you going to eat all by yourself?"
âU-um,â Phil stuttered, ânot exactly? I mean, Iâm not eating now.â
âWhy not? The food wonât be warm for long.â
Philâs stomach turned at the thought of food once again. Phil shrugged. âI have to finish up some emails, sorry.â
Dan didnât look convinced, but he let it go. A tense silence filled the room before Phil finally left.
Phil went back into the lounge with every intent to follow through with what he said, but his stomach had different plans. Instead of scrolling through email after email about youtube and copyright, Phil ended up laying on his side on the couch, clutching his stomach helplessly as it cramped.
Phil whimpered, burying his face into the couch cushion. His stomach grumbled, telling him off for not caring for himself. He laid there for a while, feeling absolutely miserable and lonely. The nausea was slowly becoming too much and Phil feared he was going throw up when he heard Dan calling his name.
âPhil?â Danâs voice echoed from the hallway.
Phil merely hummed in response, too sick to care about the possibility of another argument.
He heard the lounge door open. âPhil?â Danâs voice instantly became more worried when he saw Phil curled up on the couch. âPhil, whatâs wrong?â
Dan walked over and kneeled down in front of Phil, resting a hand on Philâs cheek gently. Phil nuzzled into the hand, immediately soaking up any affection he could get.
âMy stomachâŠâ Phil muttered. He rubbed it softly, trying to soothe the nausea and prevent himself from accidentally throwing up on Dan.
Dan frowned. âAre you coming down with the flu?â He felt Philâs forehead for a temperature, but he seemed fine.
âNo.â
âDid you eat something bad?â
Phil shook his head. âI think itâs stress.â
Phil was expecting some cold retaliation or for Dan to tell him that heâs stressed too and a stomachache wasnât an excuse.
What he didnât expect was for Dan to coo and instantly begin fussing over Phil. He pressed a kiss to Philâs forehead and softly pushed Philâs hand aside so he could rub Philâs stomach for him. His other hand began to play with Philâs hair, instantly relaxing him.
Not that Phil was complaining.
âBaby, why didnât you come to me?â Dan whispered.
Phil melted at the affectionate name. âI didnât want to make you worried or angry at me.â
Dan shook his head. âIâm sorry, you shouldnât feel that way. Iâll always want to care for you.â
âThank you.â Phil craned his neck so he could place a kiss on Danâs wrist, too lazy to properly reach out and kiss him.
âAnytime. Now, how does a warm bath sound? Afterwards, you can try some soup if your tummy is feeling better.â
Phil smiled shakily. âThat sounds wonderful.â
After a warm bath and a little bit of soup that warmed Philâs stomach, the two ended up cuddling on Danâs bed. Phil was curled into Dan, his head laying on Danâs chest and hands drawing little patterns across it. Dan had his arms wrapped tightly around Phil and his face was buried in Philâs hair, inhaling his scent.
Philâs stomach still had a dull ache to it, but he wasnât paying attention to it. Instead, he was enjoying the warmth and feeling of being in Danâs arms after being fussed over.
âYouâre mine,â Dan mumbled, pressing light kisses into Philâs hair. âMy baby. My Phil.â
Phil couldnât deny the rush of love and happiness that flooded his chest as he listened to Dan. It felt so good and relaxing and Phil was so in love with Dan.
âI feel properly fussed over,â Phil giggled.
âYou deserve it. Iâve been a shitty boyfriend lately and itâs not fair to you.â
Phil hummed in agreement. âYouâre making up for it. I know things are hard, but I donât want us to end up like we were at the beginning of the year. I love you so much, Dan, I donât want to nearly lose you again.â
Danâs grip tightened around Phil. âI promise, weâre going to make this work. I love you too, more than you can imagine.â
Dan held Phil tightly, showering him in kisses and compliments, until Phil slowly drifted into a deep, peaceful sleep. They still had a long way to go, but Phil knew now that they were going to be okay.












