You didn’t know where it all started, but you did know that you and Wonho were walking on dangerous waters. Your relationship was something straight out of the movies - everything was picturesque perfect and too good to be true. From date nights every Fridays to late night talks whilst cuddling under a fluffy blanket: it was everything you ever wanted in a relationship. But somewhere along the way of a quintessential 3 year relationship, you and Wonho began a menacing game of house of cards.

Honestly, you didn’t know why this game started and quite frankly, you didn’t care. At first, it was because it gave you both a high feeling of pleasure - being able to make your partner jealous to see their beautiful reaction of you touching another being. But then, Jealousy began becoming a huge symbol in your relationship, and it was quite unfortunate for the foundation of it, but at the same it was very fortunate for those you both pulled into your messy game.

However, the both of you knew that this game wasn’t helping you build your house of cards - it was making it easier for it to tumble down. And that’s where it became a tricky game. It was addicting, captivating, malicious, and vindictive, yet, in none of your right minds, you didn’t know that this disgusting game needed to end. It was eating the two of you up like roaches with wood and eventually, there would be no ‘two of you’ to finish the story.

With red painted lips, you snapped the lid back onto your Giorgio Armani Rouge Ecstasy Lipstick in the shade ‘Four Hundred’. After tossing the high-end lipstick carelessly into your black Gucci Dionysus shoulder bag, you stepped out of your black BMW with your head held almost as high as the jealously flowing through your veins from Wonho’s earlier antics. 

As you entered one of the most classiest top-line restaurants in Seoul, the captivating smell of wine effortlessly filled your nose. The soft jazz music played in the background as you made your way towards the large table placed in the middle of the Italian restaurant. Your boyfriend and his bandmates sat around the table that was filled with luxurious wine and delicious foods.

“Good afternoon boys, sorry I’m a bit late.” You spoke softly as you patted your boyfriends shoulder as you sat besides him. “Wonho kind of forgot that I had a meeting to attend today when he arranged this dinner last night.”

The boys dismissed your lateness with an understanding smile. Shownu, who sat on the left of you, gave you a little rub on the shoulder. “Hey, it’s fine Y/N. That’s understandable! Besides, we’re just here to enjoy the rest of the night.”

“You’re too kind! Being on time is a good look.” You stated.

“True, but so is being fashionably late. If I do say so myself, you look very gorgeous tonight Y/N. And I’m sure I can say this on the behalf of the rest of the boys as well.”

You responded with a giggle, “Well since we’re on the topic of compliments, you look quite handsome Shownu. I’m really loving your YSL suit choice for tonight.”

Shownu was fitted in a pepper grey Yves Saint Laurent suit that complimented his umber colored hair. His dark eyes formed into thin crescents as a smile displayed on his pink lips. 

“Oh honey, I hope you haven’t forgotten that your boyfriend is here as well.” Wonho laughed with annoyance, getting your attention.

Quickly, you turned your head and sent a devilish smile towards your irritated significant other. “What, are you jealous or something babe? Have I not given you enough attention earlier today? Or were you too smitten with the girl from this morning?”

The black haired boy scoffed, “Whatever.” Before you could respond, he waved you off as the waitress came by.

“May I get you guys anything else? Would you like a refill on your Chardonnay sir?” The blonde waitress asked, her hands behind her back as she formed a smile.

Wonho smirked, “No thank you, but, I’d actually like to buy you a glass of wine if you don’t mind.”

The girls eyes grew wide, a pink shade formed on her high cheek bones. “Oh! Uh,” She laughed. “I’d love that but I would have to decline. I can’t drink on the job.”

Wonho’s laugh erupted out throughout the restaurant. “Nonsense! Please, may I have a word with your boss? I have a proposition to make with him.” 

The girl nodded quickly before rushing off. In return, you rolled your eyes and turned your attention back on the other muscular boy.

And before you know it, the happy waitress was seated right in front of your boyfriend and right besides Hyungwon, with a glass of Chardonnay in her dainty hands. With your arms crossed across your chest, your lips formed in a straight line as your boyfriend leaned over the table to ‘wipe off; the stupid waitresses lipstick that happened to smudge besides her lips. 

“Why are you wiping the nonexistent lipstick off of her stupid face?” You questioned loudly. The girl rolled her eyes as your boyfriend chuckled. “Even if she did have her lipstick smudge, you should keep it that way because she already looks like a freaking clown either way.”

The some of the boys coughed, as some tried to sniffle in their laughs. “I’m tired, Wonho, let’s go home. We’re already done eating.”

“Ah, just another 30 minutes, Y/N.” Wonho suggested before he started filling the wine glass of the waitress. Her disgusting smile was displayed fully as she tapped her glass with Wonho’s before they began their flirtatious conversation. 

Two can play at that game and you can definitely play it better.

“Shownu,” You started softly, “You have really nice muscles, and honestly, they’re even better than Wonho’s!”

“Oh really?” Shownu smiled proudly. “I’ve been trying to lift heavier weights lately and I think they’re working.”

“Definitely. You should...” Your red-painted nails caressed his arm. “Show me them sometime.” And with your teeth showing smile, you squeezed his biceps in amazement. “They’re so big and hard.”

The tall boy laughed, “I would flex right now but I rather not rip my suit in a middle of a fancy restaurant.”

“Oh, baby, don’t worry. You don’t have to flex to show me the large muscles you have, I can already feel them and if I’m being honest it’s quite a huge turn o-” 

Before you could finish, the blonde girl and your so called boyfriend shared a kissed. “That’s it.” You yelled making the two break apart. “I’ll be having a talk with your manager. Just know that your actions may have costed you your job.” Quickly, you stood up as you reached for your extortionately priced red wine. Fortunately for the disgrace of a waitress, Wonho stopped you before you could continue with your antics. 

“Just-” You shook off your boyfriends hand. “Meet me at home.”

And with that, you stormed out of the area before you would do something that you’d regret.

It was quiet. The only sounds was from the busy nights of Seoul that flowed through from your open window. The cool breeze of the chilly night danced across your skin as you sat against the grey love seat in your living room. Wonho sat across from you with a finger in his mouth as his eyes focused on the little dust particle on top of the untouched centerpiece of your coffee table. “Y/N...”

“Don’t.” You spat irritably. “Just fucking don’t.”

“I know that we,” You sighed, your mind going into jumbles. “like to play this vacuous game of jealously but you,” You stared at him intensely. Your eyes burning with anger and despair. “went too far. I can’t even begin to explain how I feel right now. I’m honestly beyond the point of jealously, hell, I’m in deeper than the pits of hell right now.”

You stood up, “I’m surprised we made it this far, Wonho. 3 years and a half full of pure bullshit and endless misery. Why do we keep continuing this game? Why can’t we end this? Is it because of the sultry make up sex? Or is it because of the feeling of bliss and mischief as we find our way back to another through a trail of childish games we call jealousy?”

“Please, baby, calm down.”

You laughed, “Calm down? Fuck you Wonho. Seriously, fuck you.” With all the anger that filled up insides you, you let it all pour out through your angry screams. “I can’t live like this anymore! We can’t live like this anymore. Our house of cards already collapsed, yet we keep trying to build it up again through these games. Our relationship is a useless dream. We’re not like what we used to be.”

“I wish we could rewind back to when everything was okay. 

You looked down at your feet before taking a seat again. “I wish we could turn back to what we were, but,” You looked at Wonho through glossy tears. “now we’re monsters. We destroyed what was once beautiful.”

Wonho got up and stood before you, his hand reaching out towards your tired body. “Even through tough times, I will never let go of this moment.” You connected your hands as you both held each other close. “Moments like these are the reason why we stay together. Despite our malicious actions, we always find a way to overcome those disgusting acts. I’m sorry for what I did earlier, and I honestly didn’t intend for it to lead that far.”

“I’m stupid for forgiving you each time but I can’t help it. I love you too much Wonho.”

“In a twisted time-space, our beautiful memories are the only thing whole. They empty the times that were once filled with regret and jealousy. I believe in fate, I believe in us, I believe in honesty, and I believe that we don’t change. When I close my eyes and I believe that you’ll always be by my side. Even, when the distant memories of us repeating  our bad cycle.”

“Jealousy is our destroyer.” You closed your eyes and await the unpalatable cycle of your vicious games to rewind and begin all over again.