#shockerrr

I've noticed I only find the courage to write personal stuff at like 5am after staying up all night...

Delirium is a hell of a dr¥g.

It's like Dutch courage, but without the alcohol

Yeah maybe my grammar is a little clumsy and I may not always choose all of the right words, but it's something.

None of it is ever planned, it just kinda spills out of me like steam from a pressure cooker. It all builds up until it pops. This used to look like autistic meltdowns or shutdowns, but now it comes out as something productive. It's helping me to reflect on a lot of thoughts and feelings that I could never express irl (because I don't have anyone that i could talk to about most of the intimate stuff).

I haven't had a serious meltdown since I started blogging. I appreciate you all for giving me the space to express myself and not mocking me for not always being very eloquent.