it's been so fucking long since i've posted, about 4 months??? and i am here alive and (kinda) well LOL
i have missed you all so much and while i have still been active in interacting with posts, i have honestly lost my spark in writing. i hate to sound like another blog that is leaving completely after having not posted for months with no explanation, but it sucks to say that's its come down to that.
i have enjoyed my time on here for the past 3 years or so that i've been on this platform, but like most things โ sometimes, we grow out of it at some point. i'm happy to say that i truly enjoyed writing for my comfort character (still is ><) but now is the time where i've grown up and am redirecting my energy to other aspects of my life.
the works i have created over the course of building my blog was so fulfilling and i had found such a wonderful outlet to express my creativity. it's also given me a space to interact with you all!!
to my mooties, anons and users:
i am beyond grateful for the support and encouragement throughout the years. every person i have met on here has been so sweet and patient i cannot thank you enough < 3 being moots with some of my top inspirations blew my mind at first because i really look up to them!!! it's hard to tag them all without forgetting some, but just know a lot of my moots are the reason i started my own blog to write for levi in the first place!!
it also baffles me that people STILL engage with posts that have been long passed and buried deep in my blog. it makes me incredibly happy that you guys enjoy the works i have put out and have continued to show that support, thank you a million times!!!
as for where im at right now, i do not see myself committing to writing for this blog anymore. however, all my works can still be found untouched, in my masterlist :D. everything will remain the same as it was! i will still be on tumblr, casually reading and interacting with posts (since it's honestly just a way for me to unwind), so my messages are still very much open!
as for my inbox, you guys can of course send in anything that is not pertaining to a request!!! casual messages and such can still be sent, we can all keep in touch :)
again, thank you all for everything and i will still remain here to catch up with you guys!!
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So we know Eren talks to everyone in the paths before the battle. Like telling Connie how everyone will go back to normal, his and Armins moment, or him and Mikasa in the cabin.
But we never see what he tells Levi, and Levi never mentions it.
I've seen people say it's because Levi is an Ackerman and thus Eren can't speak with him, but...so is Mikasa????
So, my question is, if Eren did say something to Levi and we just didn't see it, what do you think he said?
this is such a great question!!
hmmm if anything id like to think that eren thanked levi for literally raising him in the survey corps and that he apologized for the way he turned out. he always had a sense of admiration for levi as a captain and probably even as a father figure too, so in respect for him it seems fitting to part ways as such.
i think that would be a nice closing for them considering levi had been left in the dark with lingering questions as to why this could've happened.
thanks for picking my brain nonnie TT i've always thought about this too !
when i came to the realization that everyone in aot technically DIED at some point after seeing the civilization of paradis change throughout time really made me go :,DDDDDD
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i have not been mentally okay as of lately, but i am holding on. wips have been very slow but requests will still be fulfilled!!! don't worry, i've seen all requests in my inbox and i will get to them as soon as i feel better to write them. i've missed you all and things have been hectic this month, but like all things in life โ this will pass and i will be better enough to get out of this writing slump (slump in general if you will TT)
love you all,, i will be back soon <3 please continue to be patient with me :)
idk if anyone sees my posts anymore ๐ญ but to those who are reading this, i am so discouraged w this platform and my blog overall (however i will continue to post for my event until it is finished!!! but i am thinking of going on a hiatus afterwards.)
to be completely transparent, yes it shouldn't matter if my works get noticed, i should be happy w the content i put out regardless and i do,, though, a part of me feel disheartened that when something i've worked really hard on doesn't get pushed onto the dash as much anymore, it makes me want to not post at all.
despite all that, i am VERY grateful for those who have stuck around this long and have supported me at the beginning of when i created my blog, i truly appreciate you all :,(
TLDR; i know many other creators have felt the same, i just don't know what to do when it comes down to it.
last req for today, "you look gorgeous. stunning. jaw-dropping. breathtaking. do you see what i'm trying to get at?" from the love promprs w erwin ? ( maybe w insecure!reader if you want to :3 )
๐ โ a/n: thank you for your sweet request love! this will be my first ever erwin x reader attempt so i hope i write him well for you here TT
โ (IMPORTANT!; mentions of; physical insecurity and some suggestive content! however nothing explicit ><)
It's happening again.
You swore this feeling would've passed sooner or later โ But, it had been well over a week since you had any desire to do anything with yourself. You simply had no energy to move to fix a meal in the dining hall nor could you even brush through the tangled knots in your hair.
What was the point anyway?
It felt awful to even look into a mirror for more than a few seconds before you repulsively turn away in pure disgust โ You couldn't understand why you started feeling this way about yourself, yet all you knew was that this had lingered for far too long.
Perhaps, your relationship with the Survey Corps Commander had something to do with it; He was intelligent, tall, handsome and popular amongst many women, civillian and enlisted. Perhaps, it was the way there were so many women out there who have a much better chance at winning his heart than you โ Perhaps, you didn't feel good enough.
Why even be with someone like me?
You were spiraling and you knew better than to try and handle it alone, but in this moment, you couldn't help but shroud yourself away from the world. You hadn't left your room since the morning dawned on the horizon and by now, Erwin should've noticed by now โ It didn't seem like he was anytime soon. He had his own duties outside of his interpersonal relationships, you figured as much.
Maybe if you just take deep breaths, this will all go away. It will be okay.. It will be fine..
"Hi my love, I'm sorry I couldn't wake you this morning. I thought you were-"
The familiarity of a voice that called your name as easy as it was breathing, his voice that pulled you out from under your linen covers to reveal your disheavled state that you so desperately tried to mask from your now concerned boyfriend.
Upon seeing the fatigue from your dark undereyes and the hollowed way you looked up at him, he was quick to settle at your bedside, embracing you in a blanket of warmth and security. He earnestly held you close to him with a hand detangling through the roughness of your neglected strands.
He didn't know what to say nor did he think he had any place to bombard you with a million questions all at once. Instead, he simply asked,
"Are you okay?"
That was all it took for you to completely melt into him, to give all that you had been holding in for what seemed like forever. Your arms curled around him, tears cascading onto the front of his uniform (Though he didn't seem to mind at all). You buried yourself further into his chest, pressing yourself as close as you could to him, almost as if you weren't close enough. You needed this beyond what words could explain and he understood full well.
"Shh shh, it's okay love. Deep breaths for me, take your time. I'm not going anywhere."
You heeded his word, inhaling and exhaling as he continued to stay by your side without interrupting the process. He patiently waited until your frantic breaths were reduced to a gentle rise and fall of your body against his. He then briefly pulled away, brushing the hairs that stuck to your tear-dampened face. You slightly chuckled to yourself, you probably looked ridiculously unkempt in front of him, but for all that's happened you couldn't find it in you to care anymore.
"Mind telling me what's on your mind? Full honesty, I'm not here to judge," He pressed softly, still continuing to brush out the stubborn knots in your hair.
You thought for a moment now knowing that there's no point in trying to hide anything from him. The appearance of you already gave so much away.
"I.. I don't feel the best about myself. I don't feel like I deserve your love nor do I feel... beautiful. I haven't for a while and I don't know why. I never told anyone because I thought this feeling would go away on its own and I didn't want to burden you with my problems. But, it just got out of hand to where I didn't want to tell you at all. I guess I got caught up in my head too much," You explain hesistantly, wiping the leftover tears that streamed down your face.
A part of Erwin was in disbelief that you had felt that way about yourself when he felt the complete opposite. He thought you were the universe itself, his everything. And he would rip the sun and moon out of the sky just to give you the world. You would be the first and last person he'd say good morning and good night to and the first and last person he'll give his heart to. He loves you more than life itself because you are his life.
And the entirety of Erwin wanted to make sure you knew just how much he truly cherishes you.
His lips passionately meet yours in a need, a desire to convey his love in any way that he can. He hopes that this is more than enough to speak volumes to you, he hopes that he's reaching you in this moment.
You breathing becomes erratic again, but this time, in the way that felt right, that felt safe. You leaned back as he continued to hold you tightly against him, your back meeting the mattress of your bed.
"You look gorgeous," He breathes, kissing up your neck and pausing in between to continuing his affirmations.
"Stunning," Another kiss follows below your ear lobe.
"Jaw-dropping," And another kiss following down to your chest.
"Breathtaking. Do you see what i'm trying to get at?" He concludes, kissing his way back to your face where its now contorted of pure bliss โ You've missed this so much.
You could only manage a nod, but no โ He wanted to hear you say it yourself.
"I want you to use your words, my love. You're my pretty girl aren't you?"
"Yes.."
"Tell me how beautiful you are hm?" He says, advancing his way back to your navel and looking up at you before continuing.
"I'm.. I'm beautiful, I am," You whisper, tears silently welling up again in the corners of your eyes. Erwin immediately took notice and wiped them away before they could stream down any further.
"Don't you forget it okay? I am yours as you are mine and there's nothing in this world that could change that."
