Sep 10, 2023
fuck i should go to sleep cause ive got school in the morning but. listening to 30/90 by andrew garfield got me fucked up
#i first heard the song from the greatest showmen kareoke.. i still remember that day vividly#it was the only one of the offcollab week streams i was able to catch and i was listening to it while going to the doctor w my father#shit man..#not to mention that one of the last magni streams in was able to catch was the kareoke w bettel after his 1.5 debut#that stream helped me calm down abt my finals#then the final magni stream i caught was his turning lines into drawings stream#and i watched that during the lunch break on the second day of my finals#its been 2 weeks since their graduation announcements but i still cant let go i think#cant fully comprehend it#like. sure i can watch their PLs but their content there simply isnt for me. it feels different ykno#im still mourning the loss of what couldve been and all that#i wish the both of them the best but i cant help but feel conflicted and bittersweet abt it#i dont feel like going further on my thoughts#but know that i will support holostars till the day i die. i swear on it#edit. not to mention how earlier this year i had to go through some of the most stressful dance practices ever#and during the breaks i ended up watching a couple vesper clips to calm me down. like that one staz clip where he#talked abt his uncle and brother
