#she-tachi

You’re positively made for Alucard, babe. He needs your soft body for the endless cuddles and your brain for hours of conversation. I think you remind him a bit of his mother, the way you dive into books and research and don’t resurface until you’ve struck gold. Its an endearing trait  and he loves to lull you from your trances with peppering kisses over your face. He’ s all for those nights you sit atop his castle and just stare into the sky. He can point out nearly all the constellations and name’s of stars. He appreciates your hand with animals, he believes it’ll aid then well on their journey. He is also very intimate and expect him to teach you sword fighting without a doubt.

Despite the fact that I was the one who was made to cry, I was still made to seem like I was just being an asshole. I sat in my room for a near two hours crying my eyes out. So much that I was in physical pain and I hated every second. But no matter how hard I tried to stop crying and compose myself once again like I normally do when I tear up, I could not stop. My ears where ringing and where hot with much ache. My eyes felt like they were being pushed out of my sockets and my head was aching very badly. I couldnt talk because my throat was swollen and my jaw felt like it was being compressed and my body just hurt all over. In my time of much pain because the rudeness and misunderstanding of people there was one person who sat with me. Though it was virtual it counted. My amazing girlfriend sat with me , messaging me back as I went on about how my family was rude and insensitive to me. And when i told her I had been crying for an hour, rather then typically saying “Don’t cry, it’s ok.” She encouraged me to cry. Cry it all out because she said I needed to. And she was right. I really did. It hurt badly and it felt like my eyes where shrinking and throat was swelling even more. But after a near two hours of crying and just confiding in her and after a hot shower to calm me I was ok. I felt a little better, The pain wasnt as bad. She didnt tell me to suck it up. She didnt say it was going to be ok. And she never once told me to stop crying. She virtually sat there with me and listened and did her best to comfort me.Neither of us are good at consoling people but she did her best and her best was enough for me to calm down and recollect myself. She let me cry, told me to cry, to let it out and let it spill over. Years and Years of being told not to cry and I am told once to cry as much as I needed to and it felt like it was something I needed. I’m still hurt by my family members picking at me and misunderstanding but thanks to my amazing girlfriend I feel better than I did a couple hours ago. Sometimes you have no idea how much pain you’re in or how underappreciated you are until that one person comes along and smacks it into you that you are more than what they say and what you sometimes see. I am fragile and I am sensitive but because I know this and have someone who has my back when I’ve lost a shield ,who picks me up when my knees are weak from weight,I am strong. I am powerful even when Im crying. I am strong even when I have fallen under weight. I couldnt ask for anyone better. I use to think I was the protector, but I was wrong, I protect her, and she protects me. I’m so thankful to you Ke. Words could not explain how grateful I am to you. I’m so happy you exist. Where would I be without you?

those were all i could think of @~@ from friends to some people I find cool on here.

I tag: i-have-red-jeans ,frankiyearo , mosi-the-kitty , casinddiejeager , she-tachi 

thank you!