Writing this Shattered chapter is SO fun but also conflicting!!! Like Declan's thought process is all over the shop, and here there and everywhere. A part of me is concerned that maybe it's a problem and I may need to go back and fix that because it's not linear, or maybe coherent? But also...that's just Declan? He is an absolute jumbled and disorientated mess, trying desperately to survive the best he knows how?
He desperately wants to comply, but he also just wants his life to be his own and his choices to be free. And he's petrified to even dare fight back, but when he's been given a second chance at life - why should he give into this torture? And it's been drilled into him for nearly a decade that he is deserving of this and it's his purpose to be food and entertainment, but also he can't help but think how could ANYONE deserve this life? He wants nothing more than to believe August and trust that this truly is freedom and recovery, and home is just round the corner...but how the hell could he ever trust in a vampire?
It's so up and down and back and forth. But then I think, the poor thing is horribly traumatised. He's not going to have a one track train of thought. His mind and body were broken apart and are now slowly being forged back together.
