I have come to the unfortunate conclusion that i have two moods throughout the month making some days difficult, i also believe that i am bipolar, regardless if people believe if its real or not. My braIn controls me more than myself sometimes and its anything less than scary. I’m going to explain what happens,,, i mess one small thing up and dwell on that mistake the whole day, i start to talk bad about myself, start to go backwards and get paranoid, i then dwell on that one bad thing that was said about me and start to believe its my life Next I start to think about things that scare me, its like a rabbit hole and some days i feel sucked under., thus messing with my self esteem. The negative in the world, the inconsideration of some people, the hurt that god allowed on me. It’s triggering talking about now, so i will try to switch to more of a positive light. It’s a hard time getting out of the hole when this happens, and some days this can go on for weeks. I want to shed light on this topic, I want to share this disease with the world, and I want you to share you’re story too. I know this is essentially depression, but how do we keep this out of work environment, how do we stop caring about everything so much, how do we get better and fix this. Always open to suggestions. If maybe the people who leave notes leave a little encouragement, or advice for this topic, and if we shed a little light on this scary topic maybe we wont feel so alone in this world.