#sha rambles

Ava, like Annalise, has had a hard upbringing. Has dealt with heart break and possibly some levels of neglect and has issues with abandonment. She has fought her whole life to become the person she is and to have the things and life that she has. She is so very guarded and protective of her heart and her peace. She will be standoffish sometimes, but is fiercely caring for those she holds dear and is protective to a fault of her kids and her school though she often times does not outwardly show it. Even to the point of flat-out denying she cares when she actually does and having a closed-off attitude about it that no one (or almost no one) can touch or challenge.

In contrast, there was Eve, introduced in white oftentimes as an almost angelic presence to the devil surrounding and inside Annalise that only she could calm, we have Barbara Howard. Literally a saint among them to the outside, she's God fearing and also highly regarded for her guidance and ability to calm situations and more poignantly to my point she is seen to be, by us and others around them as the only one who can get through to Ava and lead her to action and/or another point of view. But also like Eve, who wasn't always good or perfect as she seemed and had a side to her no one often saw there's Barbara, who has insecurities about the way she's seen to the world through the eyes of her church family. Who has a side that likes to drink and dance and be "of the world" to the behest of her "sisters in christ" and to herself once she's :back on land". Those insecurites were something she opened up to Ava about and Ava reaffirmed her. Her judgements of others and herself was something only Ava was able to hold the mirror to her and let her see herself and at the same time others and how she could and should change her worldview.

They for each other have held the mirror up and said you see me, I see you and it has me on the brink of loving them as a ship just as much as I love me some Annalise and Eve in canon I realize. Though Barbara and Ava is a fandom space ship its still very much giving me all these feels and I can't be mad at that.