#sfg!verse

“Kurt ♡If you are reading this, you got up too early.Sorry to duck out while you were sleeping,but when I tried to wake you,you just grumbledat me. I’m out buying breakfast and alittle secret something special.Go back to bed. Should be back soon.                    ~ Adam 💕”

Adam chuckled, bending down to his kid’s level with a smile. “You ‘won’ huh?” He reached out, accepting the friendly hug hello.

“I’m glad your classmates are okay with you having three dads,” Adam started, pulling a smiling, squirming child to half-sit against his knee as he spoke. “But, you know it doesn’t have to be a contest. Daddy Elliott is godfather to all of Uncle Dennis’s kids. And your Aunt Jess is kind of a second mother too. The number of parents you have doesn’t make you any better or worse than any other family,” Adam explained, pressing a kiss to a temple and getting fussed at for his trouble.

When he pulled back, Adam only got a look of puzzlement in reply. Sighing, Adam shook his head. He placed the kid back on their feet and gave a gentle push towards the back yard. “Go find Mati and Gary while I get their leashes, we can go for a walk to the park. How’s that sound?” He beamed at the happy cheers and thumping feet down the hall he got in response.

“You think I don’t know that?!” Jake snarled, throwing Marley’s consoling hand off of his shoulder.

“Look just...” Jake trailed off, fists clenched as he stared angrily at the wall beside them. “I know. I care about him. I do. I just- I don’t know how to- I want to- But I’m not gay. And I don’t want to hurt him, but I don’t know how- I don’t know how not to when I can’t do anything, because this isn’t me. I’m not- I’m not gay...”Jake said, sadly, quietly.

When Marley’s hand returned to his shoulder this time, Jake fell into it, accepting the quiet strength from the young woman at his side. He didn’t know what he was doing. He just knew what he wanted and who he was weren’t matching up, and it was hurting him and his best friend.

“And another thing- Mmph!”

Jake stopped, eyes wide, staring at Ryder’s face, too close, too blurry. Their lips pressed together. Jake’s tongue caught awkwardly against his teeth. Ryder’s lips smashed gracelessly to his face. Both their cheeks scrunched up together.

Too close.

Jake’s hands on Ryder’s shoulders, Ryder’s own hands on Jake’s shoulders. Jake pushed Ryder away, eyes still wide, almost hurting from how dry and strained they were “What-? Why-?”

“Oh, for fuck’s sake, Jake. Don’t you get it?! I wa- Hnn?”

This time it was Jake lunging in, too close, too hard, too fast. But perfectly clear. In a way nothing had ever needed to be. Jake wrapped his arms around Ryder’s back, pulling him flush, chest against chest.

When they broke minutes later, both of them sprawled across the bed, Ryder blinked up at him, and Jake  swallowed the urge to kiss him again.

“I still don’t know, but I don’t think I really care anymore. I just- want. And I hate wanting. I’d much rather have. So, if it’s all the sa- Mmhmmm.” Jake smiled, pulling Ryder close again. This would work. They’d figure out the details later. Or not at all. They didn’t really matter anyways.

Oh god... this is SO hard... XD especially after I just reblogged that “fear of losing the people you love”  post for sfg!adam XD

That said, I kinda love both of them XD Because either one would kind of break him a little bit... I mean... he’d put himself back together, he’s half expecting Kurt to up and leave him already because of the whole Poly thing. Which... I think makes losing Elliott the more interesting plot to me?

Like, Adam’s braced for losing Kurt, and it would Wreck him, but he’d pick himself up, snuggle with his boys and eventually move on. It would put a damper on his falling for Dennis anytime soon, for SURE, but he’d move on within a few months.

If Adam lost ELLIOTT... It’d DESTROY him. (To be clear, so would losing Ryder, really). He’d be a COMPLETE wreck. He probably wouldn’t be able to go back to work for days, maybe weeks. And an Adam who isn’t drawing or socializing is an Adam in trouble. He’d simultaneously fall into Ryder and push him away. I don’t know WHAT he’d do to Kurt... I could see Dennis stubbornly refusing to let Elliott’s disappearance/death/whatever stop him from being friends with Elliott’s (ex-?)boyfriends. So... potential there too.

tl;dr: I think I’d prefer to write Adam losing Elliott. Either ONE would hurt him, but I think losing Elliott would hurt him SO much more, and in different ways than losing Kurt would. It’d be the more interesting storyline 8D

Send “⁇” for a drunk text.

Jake: So.Jake: Like, the insurrection. Not the song. And great. Now that songs going to be stick in my head all week.Jake: Whatever. Anyway. So, I decided.Jake: I want it. I want to try it to.Jake: Too*Jake: And I know I’m gonna chicken shit out when I sober up. So get here soon. Because I’m really hard. And I really want to get laid tonight.

♦: for an apologetic voicemail

Jake: Jane? I- shit- [shuffling and clatter in the background] Hey, listen. I’m sorry, okay? I didn’t mean to- say those things. Or that way. Or just... I’m a little drunk right now, but I just want to you- you to know, I’m sorry, okay? I do care about you. And... I think you’re beautiful, and really good at what you do, and I just- Dammit- I’m not good with words. Or feelings. I just- Can you please forgive me? Because this not forgiving shit sucks! And I miss you already and I just... [coughing sounds followed by a long inhale]. [Voice choked when he speaks again] I’m sorry. Okay? Just... Please call me back? I swear I can explain... [long pause] I love yo_| [click]

[text] *~X~* YES! *~X~*[text] But seriously, it’s been /weeks/. I know we see each other pretty much every day I just... kinda miss it.[text] I guess it’s silly, we don’t have to do it if  you’re not interested.[text] Just forget I asked. Water under the bridge.