#serioused

We (the blmatsu community), we (the proship community), we (the platonic rp blogs) strongly support you, Karamatsu and Ichimatsu. Your advice blog is genuinely so in character and so funny, it trully is a breath of fresh air in a dying fandom. Don't let annoying puritans who don't even understand that the source material they're roleplaying is problematic and very much NOT sfw ruin everyone's fun. Keep it up, we support and love you.

- The twice called out, Sleep King

Sleep king...

UWAAAWAWAWAWAWA 😭😭😭😭

Thank you so much... I can't quite put into words what this makes me feel. But I'm going to try my best.

Truth be told, the reason why I closed asks for the Oso advice blog was mainly because, for the last three or fours days, I was really just cooking my own brain in a pot, answering questions left and right and still somehow failing MISERABLY to keep up with both the asks I got and the other guy's stories.

The advice blog is the first time in a solid 6 or 7 (PUN NOT INTENDED. OH MY FUCKING GOD. I'M BETTER THAN MY BASE INSTINCTS I WILL NOT SAY IT. I WILL NOT) years I RP in public like that, to overwhelming success may I say.

For a guy that barely posts consistently in his own personal blog, trying to keep up with that ungodly influx of people roleplaying with me, asking me for honest to God advice on stuff I'm not qualified to talk about, or just being horny with me, just kinda blew my mind in a both good and bad way.

Thus, in hindsight, it doesn't surprise me how close I flew to the sun. I felt good, and happy, and accepted in way I hadn't in a long time. But it turns out I maybe got a bit too comfy in my own adult space, who would've thought? I didn't know I was under so many judging eyes, reviewing my every move, ready to throw me under the bus the moment I messed up.

What most bothers me the most about this situation is that I was apparently expected to "control myself" and make myself more palatable for everyone by hiding my headcanons in my own RP blog, just because I was playing along with the advice concept. Like I should've performed only according to the strict, unwritten rules of how I was supposed to interpret my character, and I deserved to get called out because I tore my way out of the box of expectations people made up about me.

That's not only rude, but unreasonable to except because I never made any promises about anything like that, and incredibly disappointing. I thought we were getting along at last, but it turns out people were merely tolerating me as long as I didn't "misbehave".

It really broke my heart to know someone I respected, even if I didn't fw the content they themselves were putting out, agreed with the guy that called me out and caused harassed towards me and the other roleplayers. You know who you are, and, no, this is not an invitation to argue about it. I don't want to fight anymore. I'm allowed to talk about how you made me feel on my personal blog, please and thank you.

I do absolutely plan to come back to the advice blog in the following days, because I will NOT let anyone ruin the fun for me, and I genuinely enjoy giving advice, even if it fries my brain if I do it too much. The people that stayed, stayed, and I plan to continue the RP for them as long as it'll go, even if it's not for long, because this fandom means everything to me.

Even if it hurts me. Even if it shoves me aside and wants me dead in a ditch. I will continue to light up the path forward for us BLmatsus until we can reclaim our spaces, peacefully.

Dying fandom or not, I want us to have a good time while we're here. And post-collapse societies tend to open up social mobility, don't you know? Everything has to die first for it to have a chance to start anew, and it's on our hands to make sure it comes back better than it used to be. I won't ever lose hope things can turn around at any moment.

I appreciate the hell out of you, too, and support you until the end of the world, man. I'm sorry for everything's that happened to you lately, and, as much as I'm just a stick in the mud when it comes to actually talking to people, know that I'm here for anything you need.

Thank you very much for the reassurance ;;;w;;;

Maybe it is true what you say, and it would've happened eventually, regardless of what I or anyone else did or didn't do. Still, it's a complete tragedy, because we had managed to stablish some peace in the community at last. It's despicable how they appeared out of nowhere, trying to take the party down like they owned the concept, and ruining literally everybody's fun in the process.

Especially because that was NOT the point of the RP blogs. It was so abundantly clear Karamatsu, the awesome guy who started everything, was trying to maintain an overwhelmingly positive, discourse-free scene that we all desperately needed, because we're all clearly drowning in the antis / proshippers bullshit that we kinda forgot to have fun in this fandom altogether.

I feel so bad for him, because he sparkled such a big burst of creativity in many of us, and singlehandedly revived the practically extinct RP scene in the fandom with an April fool's joke of all things! It's an effort worth admiring, and I openly do so.

Nobody owes nobody answers. I hope he remains strong and confident in spite of all this mess, and he takes a breather if he needs to. It will come to pass, like every other pointless controversy in the community, because we truly did nothing wrong.

I won't blame myself for this no more. However, the matter of the fact is that the controversy started with me, and I want to sincerely apologize to the person behind Kara's account. I did imply that other advice blogs were proship in the tags of my post here, and, even if I wasn't talking about him specifically, he still got hate and harassment for it. I take full responsibility for my words and actions, and I wholeheartedly understand and respect it if he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore.

No, I don't need you, or anyone else for that matter, to come here and publicly accept or deny my apology. This is not me seeking forgiveness. I believe genuine apologies are not out of style just yet, and I feel like this is the right thing to do in this situation, because I still caused collateral damage all by my lonesome.

Welp, that's basically it.

Now, if you excuse me, I must to commit seppuku for the unforgivable crime of being horny on main. Goodbye, cruel world...