Okay so I definitely spent my lunch break at work in my feels over @jangofctts and @jango-fettish’s latest conquest to break our hearts with the Sunburst Boys. I wrote some grieving headcanons and a blurb... and definitely didn’t cry while doing it...
Blanche.... withdrawn absolute reclusive depression. Ugly crying to the point where he wretches. He harbors so much anger, towards himself, towards Syrena... is prompted by higher authority to pull himself together. On the outside he kind of acts like it didn’t happen, barks out orders, continues leading. Won’t talk about it. Blanche lands in the depression phase of grieving and never leaves
Kami..... guilt. So much guilt that he wasn’t there. Maybe he could have done something. Doesn’t want to think about it. Has more than couple one night stands, drinks a too much. Briefly considers trying raw spice, but luckily does not go down that path. Lands up getting too drunk and throws up in the alley behind 79’s and cries. Vows to live better and not let himself get this low anymore, Max would hate to see him like this
Void... also a lot of guilt. Maybe he could have saved him. If he wasn’t good about taking care of himself before, he’s certainly not doing it now. It reaches a point where he realizes he’s gonna die or hurt someone with how bad his hands shake. He talks to the General Tavik they work under for guidance
Sweets.... Uncontrollable bouts of crying. Just in the middle of things. Shuts down, collapses in random places. Self stims by rocking. Struggles a lot because Max was one of the few on the squad that was good at comforting him, and giving him physical touch. Turns to Jaws instead.
Jaws... is starting to lose touch with reality over it. Begins having issues with disassociating. Also just cries unprompted. Cuddling with Sweets helps a bit.
Blue... Bargaining. If Blanche is depression in the 5 stages or grief. Blue is stuck in bargaining. “If only I had done XYZ” “Maybe if I had done this he would still be alive”. If I am a good Sergeant... he won’t have died in vain.
Bruiser... unbridled rage. He is so fucking angry. Angry at Syrena. Angry at Max for not letting someone else die in his place. Angry at the Heretics. Angry at Blanche for not telling him that Syrena was there that day. Angry at himself for not being able to save Max. He broke his hand by punching through Duracreet
A couple months after Fuse joins the squad, about a year after losing Max.
“Hey Kami... what’s with Sweets today?” Fuse asks, watching Jaws walk out of cafeteria with Sweets under his arm
“Leave him the fuck alone,” Kami spits
“Hey! I didn’t do anything to him. We were talking about asking General Tavik if we could get shore leave and he just broke down and started bawling,”
“Look Fuse, today is not a good day for us. Today was the day,”
“Oh.....”
“Yeah. Not to be a fuckin asshole man. But just... leave everyone alone today,”
“Yeah.... yeah okay. M’sorry man, I guess I’ll be in the armory if you..... if you need anything,”
