You are the knife I turn inside myself; that is love. That, my dear, is love.
― Franz Kafka, Letters to Milena
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↳ happy belated bday to our favorite tragic boy nam seon-ho (april 5, 1368)!! 🎁💙💙💙
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You are the knife I turn inside myself; that is love. That, my dear, is love.
― Franz Kafka, Letters to Milena
(insp.)
↳ happy belated bday to our favorite tragic boy nam seon-ho (april 5, 1368)!! 🎁💙💙💙

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I do recommend My Country: the New Age if you like watching lots of WAR and dramatics between insane gay people. Okay there is ALWAYS. just a lot going on. Here’s a chain of events: Nam Seon-ho, upon reuniting with Seo Hwi for the first time since screwing him over during the state exam and then getting Hwi sent to the front to stop his dad from killing Hwi bc Hwi knows that Seon-ho’s dad bribed an examiner (like I said. LOT going on.) because now Seon-ho’s been sent to kill Hwi’s unit by his dad, kinda just stares at him for a bit and then immediately jumps into Sung-rok’s sword that’s meant for Hwi. Big stab wound, he looks totally dead, Hwi screams a lot over his body it’s great. Anyhow, while Seon-ho is passed out, after he finishes screaming, Hwi 1) begs on his knees for his friends to PLEASE help him save the guy who was sent to kill them all, 2) organizes their escape from the extra guys Seon-ho’s dad left behind to kill all the survivors including Seon-ho, and 3) gets Seon-ho medical care and refuses to leave his side for two days. When Seon-ho wakes up he’s like I have realized that I have something I can’t bear to lose. I am talking about YOU. Idiot. And Hwi goes “…?” And then Seon-ho starts lying and telling Hwi that Seon-ho is responsible for all the bad shit that happened (lies) and Hwi says right thats all bullshit it’s clearly your asshole dad’s fault. and then Seon-ho says “your sister is dead” (she’s not, but his dad said he’d kill anyone who found out) so Seo Hwi goes YOU KNOW WHAT!!! FUCK YOU FOREVER AND EVER!! WE ARE BREAKING UP!!!! And Seon-ho just goes🧍👍 okay [eyes full of tears] and Hwi says I am going to KILL your dad (the secretary of the state) and Seon-ho goes wHAT NO. nononono dont. Dont do that he’ll fucking kill you!!!!!!!!!! And Hwi says WE ARE BROKEN UP FOREVER AND EVER YOU DONT GET TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO and then their conversation is interrupted by a bunch of flaming arrows and Hwi, who, and I cannot emphasize this enough, just HAULED HIS HALF-DEAD ASS for like three days to save Seon-ho, FULLY abandons Seon-ho to the flaming arrows. And Seon-ho goes right yeah cool so that’s great, puts his armor on and then uses a big dramatic speech about being abandoned to recruit Sung-rok to his big plan to kill his dad (the secretary of the state) and the king and then he dramatically steps out of the burning building looking like a human shadow yadda yadda Seon-ho’s the dark prince now blah. And then theres still like a full hour of episode left after all that
Seonhwi: What if I miss you for the rest of my life?
Song: What if I miss you for the rest of my life? by Janine Berdin
Short edit cuz I was seeing so many doomed ships to this audio and wanted to give it a try
Part 38 - ?
"Saudade" by @rhaenys-queenofkhyrulzz on AO3
Saudade- (n.) a nostalgic longing to be near again to something or someone that is distant, or that has been loved and then lost; “the love that remains”
When Seon-ho's brother survived that fateful day, Nam Jeon sold him to Ihwaru in a fit of rage. Years later, an 18-year-old Seon-ho is now the most shamefully sought after kisaeng amongst Goryeo's rotten upper class. His reputation reaches far and wide- even to the ears of the young nobleman, Yi Bang Won, who intends to find out the reason for these rumours himself. This leads to years of painful love, a relationship of convenience and something dark and twisted that seeks to consume them all.
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kisaeng!Seon-ho has to deal with his political ambitions colliding with his messy love life for many years down the road
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This is a DARK one. Read at your own risk, and for the love of god, READ THE TAGS. It's important, especially if you can't handle certain themes.
If YOU DID read the tags, and still want to read it, GREAT. Cause although it's not finished, it's so we'll written you won't regret it. And it's such an interesting concept. What would Seon Ho do in that situation? To survive and protect who he loves?
And check their other works too, ESPECIALLY the fandvids. Both times after me putting those songs in my Seon Ho playlist, I find two fanvids made by them WITH THOSE EXACTLY SONGS. Reading my mind for real.
And I LOVE how it's kinda unspoken in this fandom how easy you can read Seon Ho's relationship with his father THAT way. It's so complicated in canon.
Anyway, I LOVED doing this cover. Those are the design from the account kdc, who does poster about Korean culture, and they're amazing.
nobody will ever do it like seo hwi and nam seon-ho bc well first of all obviously who else would react to their fomer best friend stabbing them w the words "your sword still feels affectionate" but even that aside. the way both of their respective lives suck ass and it is at least partially the other guy's fault and theyre both passively if not actively suicidal themself and yet they keep imploring each other to live because even if that life is spent in the pursuit of each others downfall they need to know that the other one is alive and then they meet as enemies on the battlefield again and again and every time they maim each other they immediately have a nervous breakdown about it

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tamino - my dearest friend and enemy // hozier - as it was
Loving Seon-ho is taking on the difficult task of trying to keep him alive. And to try to prevent him from destroying himself, either by his own hand or by someone else's.
soooo i am watching my country the new age… love them.