#self-eestem

Hello! I want to thank all of you for your support!

It’s a unofficial second part of my post about Hinata’s view on Chiaki and Komaeda. This time I want to show you how similar Hinata and Komaeda are and how it’s showing in Komahina & Hinanami. I used word parallel not without a reason. That’s why this time we will analyze in detail how Hinata cared about Chiaki and Komaeda about Hinata. Enjoy!

FIRST PART:

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RENDER: Nemi20

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I wanted to share how I personally started to improve my confidence; I'm not 100% confident still, however I feel better than I used to be and this is how I achieved this.

. I simply did things that I've wanted for a while, even if they are small little things. For example; I got my industrial piercing a couple of days ago, which gives me a reason to show off my ears as well as just the piercing itself making me feel better about myself, it's a very powerful feeling. However you do not have to go full out, but they could be anything from piercings, tattoos, getting your nails done and so on. Anything.

. Because I am going to college (Hopefully) around September to begin my Game Design course, I wanted to improve myself before going so I don't feel couscous or have my mind on other things. Go to the doctors/dentists and have check ups or cure issues you are having, being healthy or fixing appearances that kill your esteem before a big step in life really helped me, I hope to get braces soon and knowing I am perfectly healthy keeps my mind of worried thoughts (for Hypochondriacs especially). If something like a health problem or visual appearance (Like myself I don't have the perfect teeth), plan or working on that, or maybe talk to more people and get used to them. If you're perfectly comfortable with whatever issue/visual aspects you have, that is a very positive way to think about things; please feel comfortable in your skin. Moving onto visual aspects.

. Weight. If you are personally uncomfortable in your own skin because of your weight, I am not going to tell you to 'Diet', 'Lose weight' and so on, however I wanted to remind you of two things, one of them being is to never skip meals. Please never skip meals, because the more you do it, yes. It is possible to lose weight that way, however, it is much easier to put the weight back on and it is not recommended to skip meals, so make sure to never skip meals and just moderate on food amount instead within the three meals. Following on focus more on toning instead of weight loss, because chances are your body is fine, but if you have small problems you dislike such as 'A big gut' and whatnot, they just require toning. But just make sure you do not become obsessive, because you do not have to be size 0 to feel comfortable; I felt problems with my weight, I did often feel uncomfortable thinking I wasn't healthy or looked it, however many people insured me that the extra weight on me actually required toning, not weight loss. It is very important to feel comfortable, because the more comfortable you are, the more confident you are.

. Find your style. Something I realized about myself is that I favour women fitting clothes and the sort of scene styled hair. I used to wear very baggy clothes, which eventually made me feel uncomfortable because the mens shirts took the shape away from my body and didn't work in my favour, therefore the newer styles I've been getting used to make me feel very comfortable, occasionally I feel prettier than I used to feel.   

. Find yourself a spare time hobby or collect things you like (I've been collecting LOTr merch lately), because lately I've been having way too much time on my hand, so I am going to take up swimming again and focus on crafts, for example I am going to start making Fursuits hopefully, I've been learning to do that in spare time. Or use spare time to revise on things you need, for example since I want to become a Game Designer, I've been drawing again so I can use them skills in my classes. Since these keep me very busy, I'm never just sitting around daily. Unfortunately I sleep my days away because I felt like I had nothing to wake up to, considering I'm quite a lonely person friend wise and the fact that my lover left me; which all left me feeling disinterested in things I loved; so keeping my mind busy will prevent the lonely feeling. Loneliness is very powerful; they say that if you were put in prison, you'd be happier around the other frightening prisoners than being isolated. So if you’re not a people person, a hobby will be a nice alternative until you gain confidence to speak to others.

Okay. I get that I'm not the prettiest/skinniest/most intelligent girl.But, thankfully I've grown to love my crazy self - and I'm really proud of that. (I used to always criticizing myself before) Still, boys, and Yeshiva University Boys in  general just piss me the fuck off. 

Today we had "Football Fun Day" in the Central Park, I was wearing my Aaron Rodgers jersey and was ready to play. Guys? Lol they were only interested in girls who were wearing pants, and who either did not care about football or just didn't really care about Judaism as they were in pants at our school. (Now, i used to wear pants and i still believed i was a religious Jew, but i was in a PUBLIC SCHOOL. NOT YESHIVA UNIVERSITY (side note- why would you pay a private school education if you don't want to take on the main elements in Judaism?) 

And, of course i would have loved to play a real game of football - but i don't touch guys (religious thing) and you'd think the YU guys would get that. But no. It took me 10 mins to explain exactly why i cant play football with them, and why they shouldn't be playing with girls. Except I only managed to convince one guy, and of course the one hot guy, questioned the person I convinced not to play. Convinced guy was like, well aren't you shomer? Cause how are they (the girls) going to touch you- for two hand toch? He responded with yeah kinda..and then continued to flirt and play with girls. 

And me? The one time i would like a guy to talk to me as if he maybe sorta was interested in me, because i am a football machine and am *obssessed* they choose to flirt with other girls. And yeah.. I'm still here. I mean you don't need to flirt with me, but you could please speak to me as an equal in a football setting. So, screw you. 

love,