#self-change

Today is Friday 4/13.  Usually I have ok to good luck on Friday the 13th,  not today.

I took off today, but still had to work cause of emergencies at work.   My headphones broke.  There was major backsliding ( possibly caused by illness), in people’s behavior.  I got hate mail on twitter ( btw, fuck off to the person who sent that… just thought Id slip that in). I got 3 hours sleep.  There was a fail on the metrics ( backsliding), we set out and basically I threatened to get the the chains out ( in classical evocation work, to “torture and bind” the entity).   Probably not the most “grace” filled thing I could do, but the message was sorta there. While I might play nice, I’m not going to be taken advantage of either.  Results or we go all classical.  I know thats not exactly the demonology way but eh, Dantalion was getting a little pushy on some things, and I basically was not going to have it.  Results or no dice on what was asked for.   Generally I will be generous on the praise ard rewards.   In retrospect, I probably need to bust out my emergency mantra work ( the mantra I am working with), more often on days like this.

So I am going to do the work now, the earlier “threat”, I am going to leave aside and try to be more graceful.  I am going to reverse the Dantalian work and Ganesh work, or sandwich the  Dantalion work by some rounds of mantra work.   

 On the positive side, BBQ season is now open so I did that.  

Addendum:   So I reversed the order of the Ganesh and Dantalion work and I threw in a bit of Shiva work ( Om Namah Shivaya ).    This was very effective.   I have a HUGE body buzz, and then I went right into the Dantalion work who was more subdued ( obviously, I was an asshole earlier, and the demon really wants a longer and more permanent connection, and generally was overconfident about what they could do, or my projection was).   Readings game back that everything was fine and this was a correction that was needed ( the earlier one).   Still the order mattered and it was var easier and more enjoyable to start with the ganesh stuff,   mostly cause the initial infernal banishing/elemental centering took a lot less work and was far more enjoyable after the chakras were open and aligned.  Cross parading work, it is what it is.  

On a side note, I think I need to do some experimentation again, come up with some crazy but not that crazy stuff 🙂  for fun.

I am a firm believer that love isn’t selfish but I also believe in relationships that stands the test of time. What I mean by the former is, is that if your partner openly voices hurt and frustration over what you have done to them. The best thing to do is not to try “win them back”, with the promise of change. But instead, to let them go (for now). We all know the fragile time between breaking up and trying to move on causes a lot of volatile emotions. So this “promise of change”, is indeed a selfish one because we only use that phrase as a tool to win someone back but not really work on changing. Therefore even if you temporarily feel a sense of security again, it won’t last for long and you will re-enter into a toxic cycle again. 

The latter of what I mean by “relationships that stands the test of time”, is that all relationships are made up of challenges and difficulties. And there is never going to be a difficulty or challenge you will be happy about facing but for any relationship to survive, there must be trust, compromise and patience. Perhaps it was something that stirred a lot of anger in you for one moment that generated a string of negative thoughts and that completely clouded your judgment on the overall health of the relationship. It’s easier to say a relationship wasn’t meant to be rather than face those challenges head on. But if you want a relationship to last years, it’s something that you might have to get used to. Relationships are hard work but for good reason! After all, you were in a relationship because you love them. 

Second chances are possible but the reality some people refuse to swallow is that their own ego and pride stands in the way of them truly getting the person they want back. “Getting them back”, is an instant gratification, therefore, it is  selfish and will not help prolong the relationship. What you need to do is “work on yourself”. It’s a hard pill to swallow to think you may be the one that have wronged the other in the relationship but when you let that ego go and really work on getting the person back, you will soon realise the thing you need to do is to start re-building yourself from the inside out. See, it is hard work. 

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