#domagick

Oct 2019 #Spiritwork #Domagick Day 27

(I’m shifting focus away briefly from my house and land sprites to work with the daemoness Delepitoré this evening. This is a brief prayer intended for her as part of my rite. It includes her daemonic enn, or the phrase used to invoke / invite her into my ritual space.)

So I am not creating all original content to teach everyone the techniques. However, each day I will link to resources, or an example that readers can follow or use, to help those new to the practice learn. I start tomorrow!

Listen to Drumming or chants.

Color a Mandala – 1

Yoga Session (A Flow Sequence for Mindfulness)

Walking Meditation 1

Silent Reflection 1

Chakra Meditation 1

Sigil Meditation 1

OM or Mantra Meditation

Qi Gong

Free Writing

Tarot Meditation

Breath Focus – Lions Breath

Breath Focus – Breath of Fire

Breath Focus – Bellows Breath

Flame Focus

Guided Meditation 1

Chakra Meditation 2

Guided Meditation 2

Yoga Session (A Flow Sequence for Energy)

Silent Reflection 2

Walking Meditation 2

Listen to Drumming or chants.

Color a Mandala – 2

Yoga Session

A Meditation for Dream Walking

Sigil Meditation 2

OM or Mantra Meditation

Qi Gong

Free Writing

Tarot Meditation

Today is Friday 4/13.  Usually I have ok to good luck on Friday the 13th,  not today.

I took off today, but still had to work cause of emergencies at work.   My headphones broke.  There was major backsliding ( possibly caused by illness), in people’s behavior.  I got hate mail on twitter ( btw, fuck off to the person who sent that… just thought Id slip that in). I got 3 hours sleep.  There was a fail on the metrics ( backsliding), we set out and basically I threatened to get the the chains out ( in classical evocation work, to “torture and bind” the entity).   Probably not the most “grace” filled thing I could do, but the message was sorta there. While I might play nice, I’m not going to be taken advantage of either.  Results or we go all classical.  I know thats not exactly the demonology way but eh, Dantalion was getting a little pushy on some things, and I basically was not going to have it.  Results or no dice on what was asked for.   Generally I will be generous on the praise ard rewards.   In retrospect, I probably need to bust out my emergency mantra work ( the mantra I am working with), more often on days like this.

So I am going to do the work now, the earlier “threat”, I am going to leave aside and try to be more graceful.  I am going to reverse the Dantalian work and Ganesh work, or sandwich the  Dantalion work by some rounds of mantra work.   

 On the positive side, BBQ season is now open so I did that.  

Addendum:   So I reversed the order of the Ganesh and Dantalion work and I threw in a bit of Shiva work ( Om Namah Shivaya ).    This was very effective.   I have a HUGE body buzz, and then I went right into the Dantalion work who was more subdued ( obviously, I was an asshole earlier, and the demon really wants a longer and more permanent connection, and generally was overconfident about what they could do, or my projection was).   Readings game back that everything was fine and this was a correction that was needed ( the earlier one).   Still the order mattered and it was var easier and more enjoyable to start with the ganesh stuff,   mostly cause the initial infernal banishing/elemental centering took a lot less work and was far more enjoyable after the chakras were open and aligned.  Cross parading work, it is what it is.  

On a side note, I think I need to do some experimentation again, come up with some crazy but not that crazy stuff 🙂  for fun.

I felt in deep trance pretty easy today. I visualize that i was on the edge of a cliff and let myself fall to emptiness. I reached the void state pretty easy as well. All this time i was chanting Paimon’s Enn. i felt floating to the emptiness till i felt a force pulled me down.

I was again in the room made out of amethyst crystals (see Day 23). Again, i felt a presence next to me but i couldn't see anyone. I had the sense that i was guided, i mean i wasn't able to decide for myself where to go or what to do. There was a white marble spiral staircase, but something didn't let me go there. 

I notice that i had pushes and pulls on my body and i also notice that my energy field increased tremendously, and I was glowing (???!!!) I tried to direct this light that came out of my body, more specificated i tried to gather it in an energy ball, but it was impossible. I put a lot of effort, but no results at all. 

To be true a felt a lit bit afraid, why i couldn't manipulate this energy? Where it came from? it was my energy? 

The room was totally quiet and peaceful when i started to hear trumpets. Close to the stairs, i think i saw a silhouette, but i cant be sure. The only thing i heard was “u must connect the spaces between. go now”.................. And the voice called me with not my name, but with another name that i haven't heard before.

Building off my  initial castings yesterday, I experimented further with casting methods for my psephoi. I asked for guidance on what I should aim for with this challenge, since I only started yesterday and didn’t really do the research period since I didn’t know about it.

I have been thinking about summing up my experience for a while. I finished the 50th day in a crappy hotel bathroom and the next day we were changed to a fancy, €300 a night hotel. Stuff at work broke down so I could get some much deserved rest. The computer program literally stoped working on the night I was supposed to work, only to mysteriously start again the other day when it was my colleague’S shift. At work, seems like I’m finally turning from the bad to the good side of some people and over all my performance is improving. I got directed to a specific magical path that is actually awesome (this was him “teaching me”) and got acquainted with a Bad ass, powerful Spirit…that I’m not allowed to talk about.

On the 49th day it was the first time Paimon actually had some good words for me. He showed up in his feminine shape. I love the image so much I’m getting an illustrator friend to draw it. Paimon as a curvy strawberry blonde dressed in see through white robes with a skull necklace… and skull flip flops.

She was kind and reminded me that I am strong, that I can fend of any shit in my way. She said I had been hanging around weak people and forgot how strong I was. She said that She could give me power but that it would never get me love, or peace. She said I needed to be strong as steel and tough as leather to be able to deal with the weight of power. And I guess that was the lesson of the 50 days. She proposed a further 50 to actually deliver said power. I thanked her but said that I’ve come to the conclusion I don’t want power at all, I was just confused about the meaning of it.

I noticed Paimon always seemed to want me to leave my ex back in the day. We considered getting back together for a while during the challenge, but it wasn’t meant to be. I do believe Paimon might have a hand in there as well. “I will forge you in fire so that you will be strong as steel and tough as leather”.

She has no interest in human affairs, that much is clear. She told me as much “I don’t really get human feelings, I never was human”.

How some people consider Paimon as a water spirit I will never understand! I came away from this challenge thinking (s)he is at times earth and other fire, and yes, even air… but water? Not a drop. Which further makes me believe the classification of demons in elements makes no sense at all.

Paimon also made me think a lot about the nature of these spirits, who and what they are. I do feel stronger.. and tougher.

The pressure at work is making my colleagues break down… one of them spent their lunch time sobbing the other day…and I have been improving my performance (and income) steadily. There are still some pending issues so this might not be forever, but it happened during the 50 days.

So, all things being equal.. would I do it again?

I guess I would. I did learn some interesting things but this whole tough love approach leaves a bitter taste in my mouth. I’m not a fan of authoritarian figures, so maybe Paimon and I are not meant to be.