#self analyze

Boredom + wikipedia = winning.

So according to this one popular psych model, adults have four attachment styles:

secure

anxious–preoccupied

dismissive–avoidant

fearful–avoidant"

Let's see how this plays out...

"Several studies have linked attachment styles to relationship satisfaction. People who have secure attachment styles usually express greater satisfaction with their relationships than people who have other attachment styles.[36][37][38][39][40][41][42][43][44]"

--"No shit?"

Secure attachment

Securely attached people tend to agree with the following statements: "It is relatively easy for me to become emotionally close to others. I am comfortable depending on others and having others depend on me. I don't worry about being alone or having others not accept me." This style of attachment usually results from a history of warm and responsive interactions with relationship partners. Securely attached people tend to have positive views of themselves and their partners. They also tend to have positive views of their relationships. Often they report greater satisfaction and adjustment in their relationships than people with other attachment styles. Securely attached people feel comfortable both with intimacy and with independence. Many seek to balance intimacy and independence in their relationship.

Secure attachment and adaptive functioning are promoted by a caregiver who is emotionally available and appropriately responsive to her child’s attachment behavior, as well as capable of regulating both his or her positive and negative emotions. [10]

Insecure attachment

Anxious–preoccupied attachment

People who are anxious or preoccupied with attachment tend to agree with the following statements: "I want to be completely emotionally intimate with others, but I often find that others are reluctant to get as close as I would like. I am uncomfortable being without close relationships, but I sometimes worry that others don't value me as much as I value them." People with this style of attachment seek high levels of intimacy, approval, and responsiveness from their partners. They sometimes value intimacy to such an extent that they become overly dependent on their partners—a condition colloquially termed clinginess. Compared to securely attached people, people who are anxious or preoccupied with attachment tend to have less positive views about themselves. They often doubt their worth as a partner and blame themselves for their partners' lack of responsiveness. People who are anxious or preoccupied with attachment may exhibit high levels of emotional expressiveness, worry, and impulsiveness in their relationships.

Dismissive–avoidant attachment

People with a dismissive style of avoidant attachment tend to agree with these statements: "I am comfortable without close emotional relationships.", "It is very important to me to feel independent and self-sufficient", and "I prefer not to depend on others or have others depend on me." People with this attachment style desire a high level of independence. The desire for independence often appears as an attempt to avoid attachment altogether. They view themselves as self-sufficient and invulnerable to feelings associated with being closely attached to others. They often deny needing close relationships. Some may even view close relationships as relatively unimportant. Not surprisingly, they seek less intimacy with relationship partners, whom they often view less positively than they view themselves. Investigators commonly note the defensive character of this attachment style. People with a dismissive–avoidant attachment style tend to suppress and hide their feelings, and they tend to deal with rejection by distancing themselves from the sources of rejection (i.e., their relationship partners).

Fearful–avoidant attachment

People with losses or sexual abuse in childhood and adolescence often develop this type of attachment[11] and tend to agree with the following statements: "I am somewhat uncomfortable getting close to others. I want emotionally close relationships, but I find it difficult to trust others completely, or to depend on them. I sometimes worry that I will be hurt if I allow myself to become too close to others." People with this attachment style have mixed feelings about close relationships. On the one hand, they desire to have emotionally close relationships. On the other hand, they tend to feel uncomfortable with emotional closeness. These mixed feelings are combined with, sometimes unconscious, negative views about themselves and their partners. They commonly view themselves as unworthy of responsiveness from their partners, and they don't trust the intentions of their partners. Similarly to the dismissive–avoidant attachment style, people with a fearful–avoidant attachment style seek less intimacy from partners and frequently suppress and deny their feelings. Instead, they are much less comfortable initially expressing affection.

It's obviously not as simple as which style you are.  

Around 70–80% of people experience no significant changes in attachment styles over time.[16][28][29][30][31] 

The fact that attachment styles do not change for a majority of people indicates working models are relatively stable. Yet, around 20–30% of people do experience changes in attachment styles. These changes can occur over periods of weeks or months. The number of people who experience changes in attachment styles, and the short periods over which the changes occur, suggest working models are not rigid personality traits...

Though most of us will remain fairly consistent.

To find out exactly how they effect your relationships and why they matter, you should read the full entry.  I chose to focus on the types because it's an easy first step and a digestible way to get started on understanding a person's role in a relationship.

My guess is that once you understood secure attachments were indicators of relationship health and longevity you did your best to try and justify yourself and/or partner as having a "secure" relationship or being someone of the secure attachment type.  

Being real about this shit can be hard, but it's just you and the internet right now.  You should give it some serious consideration.  The worst that can happen is you learn nothing new.

 Ideally though, one can gain pattern insight into their personality and past relationship mistakes, allowing them to work on potential issues before they come up.

When I honestly compare myself to the different descriptions I feel closer to dismissive-avoidant than secure.  

Doctor Who: all throughout time and space - right now, always, forever, yesterday, tomorrow, every hour

Supernatural: whenever I crave manly guys with a random chance of Castiel

Sherlock: whenever I crave cheekbone and porcupine

Heroes: whenever my dash decide to punish me with gorgeous psychopath Sylar and shirtless Peter Petrelli ~ also sometimes etcetera cool things

OUAT: every once in a while when I miss romance

Lol: when my tumblr crushes be all hilarious

Cute shit: when I'm sad and want cute corgis/kitties to cheer me up

Food: when I want to torture everyone muhahahaha

"Always clean up after yourself"

It was something I always was told by "adults" and of course I thought it--being childish- to be cliche, repetitive, and like any other kid.....just didn't like the hassle. Of course, I still did it but as I grew...the idea kind of spread into how I go about things.

1. How did we first meet?

2. What was your first impression?

3. Did I seem stable or unstable?

4. If I have made you angry/upset in the past six months? If yes, please explain.

5. What is my best personality trait?

6. What is my worst personality trait?

7. What would you think is my biggest weakness?

8. Best advice to overcome it?

9. Everyone changes over the years, but what has been my biggest change? Explain. Was it for better or worst?

10. Pick two things that I totally need to STOP doing today!

11. Today, do I seem stable or unstable from when you first met me?

12. What is your favorite memory of me? Why?

I am not going to be discouraged by negativity. Because I am doing this to myself. But, Danielle and Noelle if you guys could some how some way send this to Marisa, Sydney, Julie and Lana(anyone have her email?)