#be better

Yesterday I had been out exploring a new city with my family on vacation, I had downloaded bad bad news onto my phone so I could read it while we were in the car. (And I did just finish it and it was phenomenal. But there is guilt eating at me for having the downloaded version. I feel like I should be deleting it out of respect almost. So im curious as to what thoughts are on this.) ANYWAY yesterday I came back to my hotel with a message from a moot about the situation. Then I check roses account and I am left devastated. I wanted to cry.

I loved zero cycle. It's my fav fic. Ever. As well as a lot of others. So hearing this news was fucking awful. Rose was an absolute doll and didn't deserve this.

BUT

It was not only necessarily because I just lost two of my fav ever fics and a few others I had just been planning on reading, but because rose lost them.

It had been her escape. She had put so many hours into those works. From planning, writing and editing. Then the reception she got from every single one of her works was incredible.

She had become THE f1 rpf writer.

She got more people into MCSR through zero cycle and vice versa. A joint in fandoms almost. It was really nice and fun. She had just days ago released the first half of zero cycles sequel.

But this is why we cant have nice things.

It got too big. And people got too comfortable. Too disrespectful.

RPF NEVER REACHES THE REAL PERSON!!! repeat after me

RPF NEVER REACHES THE REAL PERSON!!!RPF NEVER REACHES THE REAL PERSON!!!RPF NEVER REACHES THE REAL PERSON!!!RPF NEVER REACHES THE REAL PERSON!!!

Mentioning zero cycle in oscars comment section is fucking gross. She explicitly states to NEVER mention her works outside of fandom spaces.

Guess what insta and tiktok and Twitter is not? A FUCKING FANDOM SPACE.

Stick to tumblr

We already had people very wary after Ferraris pr video of lewis and Charles literally READING THE SUMMARIES OF FICS ABT THEM.

After that the author locked their fic thankful, WHICH I HEAVILY ADIVISE EVERYONE TO DO THE SAME THING!!!!

but now it has happened again. Except this time its OUR fault. WE did this one. Because it is people who are here reading this fic and disregarding the authors wishes. Not someone from pr doing this. Not an outsider. Us.

An amazingly talented author who was a favourite of so many, including me, lost their favorite author to this.

But more importantly. Rose lost out the most. The thing she had been doing for nearly a year now is all gone. She has had to remove herself from the equation entirely. It's not how it should be but its how it went down.

And then the AUDACITY to send her death threats over this as if it were her fault? YUCK EW GROSS WTF IS YOUR PROBLEM??!!

I can turly not even begin to describe how disgusting this is.

I 100% stand by roses descion to leave entirely. I think anyone reasonable could understand that. If she were to come back I hope she would be treated a whole fucking lot better then this. But I highly doubt she will because of this. And I deeply respect that.

And unfortunately its likely not the last time this will happen. People just don't fucking get it. They don't give a shit. And there always had been these people and there always will be but its gonna SOOOO far. No one respects the rules of rpf anymore.

I've seen a few people consider what rhey want to do about their own fics. Popular or not. People dont feel comfortable sharing their works anymore because this is happening. I am even considering it.

WE ARE KILLING CREATIVITY AND FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION

so, with all of these messy thoughts out, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HAVE SOME FUCKING HUMAN DIGNITY

im pissed and exhausted of having to constantly say this. If you aren't respecting these rules you dont deserve to be here.

It's supposed to be an escape. Something fun. A form of expression. A hobby. Now we aren't allowed to have that anymore.

And I want people to know that. But that doesn't mean I'm blind to its flaws. Of which there are many. But what I'm about to rant about fills me with a very particular kind of disgust.

I really enjoyed the direction everything was going in. I loved belinda taking none of the doctors shit and just wanting to go home. I thought we were gonna get some commentary on some of the toxic dynamics between the doctor and his companions as well as the ultimate power dynamic that consistently falls into place. (Eg: the doctor basically having complete control over the companions comings and goings.) And I honestly thought "Toxic" was confirming that.

Then "reality war" happened and all my hopes and dreams fell flat. "Toxic" was just cheap nostalgia bait. The doctor got to expert total power over his companions lives by deciding what the 'correct' timeline was.

We even had a whole "I knew you would come arround" speech like it was inevitable that belinda would just come to her senses and realise that the Doctor was just a brilliant amazing person giving her the opportunity of a life time. LIKE ALL HER INITIAL NOs MEANT NOTHING.

... like she was just playing hard to get.

He actively rewrote belinda's entire history and decided NOT to tell her! Leaving her with a daughter she never wanted and should not of existed. While he ran away.