#segashadow

Sonic's POV

It's been a few weeks since that day. Since him.

I'm trying to fall asleep, but it won't leave me alone - the talk we had. With that hedgehog, Shadow. I mean, it's pretty tough not to remember - it literally happened on the moon. Thaat I punched him to. I'll be honest, I did not know that was possible, I was surprised too when I suddenly skedaddled into space like that.

I feel bad about it, though. I mean, sure, Shadow was literally trying to wipe out humanity, but still... I let my anger get the better of me. And it wasn't just the anger I felt when Tom got hurt. It was the anger I felt when Longclaw was taken from me. It was the anger I felt during those years of being isolated and alone.

I suppressed it all for too long. It came out in a punch that sent a hedgehog to space. Real healthy, Sonic. Next time, I'll... I dunno, suppress it better.

That's probably fine.

I sigh, pulling the blanket over my head. Every day, I pretended it didn't affect me. But at night, alone with the soft glow of my fairy lights, I couldn't stop my thoughts from flowing.

And they all kept coming back to Shadow. I suppose I... I wish I could've saved him. I wish he didn't have to do that. I wish I was there to help prevent it.

I reach for the flashlight on my nightstand and bring it under the covers, clicking it on. It's comforting somehow, the small, steady beam. I think of that moment-the sunrise after the fight, when we sat there, side by side.

I looked at him. I couldn't stop looking at him.

There was something peaceful about the way he stared at the horizon, like he'd finally found a moment of calm in all the chaos. His quills caught the light, his crimson eyes reflecting the fading stars, and there was this faint, subtle smile. And I realized how much we really weren't so different. All in all... the view was majestic.

"The light shines, even though the star is gone."

I keep thinking of those words.

Shadow... he was a star. And if no one else will remember his light, I will. It deserves to shine on, just like Longclaw's.

Who I also... failed to save.

...

Damn it...

I clutch the flashlight as I feel tears forming.

"Just go away, just stop-stop, stop, please just-" I whisper as I bury my face into the pillow. I close my eyes, trying to redirect my thoughts to something else. They settle on that sunrise with Shadow again- And I slowly calmed down. Enough to finally fall asleep.

As my breathing slows and my grip on the flashlight loosens, my last thought is Shadow's faint smile, the sun casting a golden glow over us both.

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?

i dont actually like cereal at all, its too... soggy. i only ever eat toast for breakfast

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?

i am indifferent to it but the thought of someone liking it is cute

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?

i havent read a book that wasnt a textbook since like 2008. textbooks i just put on the floor face down still open and hope for the best

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?

i never take any at all -o-

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?

yeah its extremely ugly

6: do you keep plants?

not since i last opened viridi

7: do you name your plants?

you could only name the snail

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?

writing!~

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?

yeah, i do it so much its embarrassing

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?

send me a letter and ill tell you songs i like that start with that letter