Like Lanolin is constantly surrounded by noise and sound from her work or Maggie or Tangle or 50 other things and it’s become her needing it

Sedatephobia

A flag for people with a debilitating fear/panic response to silence.

κι οι ζωντανοί μου λένε «ζήσε λίγο πριν πεθάνεις.»

Any of you guys been sedated/ under general anesthesia before?

Finally, I am going to get my wisdom teeth removed around the middle of next month, and I am not thrilled about it. Not only have I never undergone any surgery, but I am also almost religiously abstinent from ALL substances that could possibly hinder my thinking, so much so that I wouldn't be surprised if I found out it's escalated to pharmacophobia. Thus, I have absolutely no clue how I react when not in my mind's driver's seat.

Quiet and confused? Pouty and upset? Rant depressed? Nonchalant and nonsensical? Inappropriate? TALKATIVE? Terrifying.

I do already plan to thoroughly hide all social media connected devices from myself and attempt to brainwash myself to stay quiet beforehand, but hearing any (hopefully reassuring) stories you guys have may ease my worries.

Date Written: Sometime back in early 2020 (I've been rewriting it for ages)

Word count: 379

Trigger Warnings: Sedatephobia (Fear of silence)

Relationships: None

Fandom: Thomas Sanders, Sanders Sides

Character(s): Logan "Logic" Sanders, Remus "Creativity/Imagination" Sanders

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Logan's P.O.V.

Remus hates silence.

“But, like, not like The Silence from Doctor Who or those Gentlemen bastards with them-” and I’m quoting his grace word for word here exactly as he said it, so I apologise, “-eternal paedophile grins from Buffy the Vampire Slayer-” both extraordinary and amazing shows in my opinion. Although let's be honest here, there have been quite a number of times where things have gotten a bit iffy in both of those shows, but that’s a topic for another time “-but like the actual silence. I just absolutely f*cking hate it. And hate’s such a strong word for me to use!”

He was upfront and somewhat calm with his explanation and examples as he gave them to me.

Though what prompted Remus to come to my door with this confession of sorts I guess, is a question I have yet to receive an answer to. However, knowing Remus, I wholeheartedly believe that I shall ever get one. 

I’d admit that whilst I knew his grace hated quite a number of things, I didn’t expect the silence to be one of them. He explains to me that he hates silence more than Patton hates spiders. More than Roman hates not being the centre of attention, which I believe is a falsehood. Truly no Side holds as much hatred as Roman does when something is not about himself in any way, shape or form, but I’m veering off-topic here. 

I still don’t quite understand what exactly it is about the silence that Remus finds so unpleasant. And in turn, Remus doesn’t understand what it is about the silence that myself and the others find comfort and solace in.

The washing machine spinning fast in the kitchen

The light strokes of the keys of my laptop as type this out.

Virgil’s absent-minded singing along to the music he’s listening to whilst sketching away in his sketchbook

Roman and Janus “discussing” at length with Thomas on new potential storylines

Patton’s screams of absolute terror upon just now discovering what I hope is a fake spider in the biscuit tin.