#seawolph

When you left me, it broke me. It shattered my heart what you did, something I wasn’t ready for. My chest hurt everytime I breathed and you weren’t there. All I wanted was to be with you again and all you wanted was to move on. I was doing really well. I didn’t miss you. I didn’t want you back. And I still don’t. But this is the first time since you left that I’m really feeling the effects of your absence. I have no one to talk to about anything anymore because I can’t bear to open up to anyone, afraid they’ll leave just like you did. I am so scared and such a mess of emotions and I have no one to talk to and that scares me, realizing I’m alone. No one really cares. And the one person I thought did, for the first time in a long time, he really doesn’t. He’s just the same as everyone else. My heart hasn’t ached like this since you left. And it makes me upset that it is aching. I don’t know what to do and I have no one I trust enough. I’m alone in this world and that scares me.

If any of my followers are looking for some instrumental music to jam out to, my brother has a few albums on iTunes and quite a few of his songs are computer-generated instrumental pieces. The name he goes by is Seawolph. It's his birthday today, so I went and bought all his music to help his sales numbers as a gift to him and he's over the moon about it.