Why don't tears work when you need them or want them? I'm in pain, I'm in sorrow, I'm in depression, I'm in misery, I'm in burdens. My heart is burning with hurt, and one way they can be relieved is by being quenched by tears. To sigh saline from my eyes is more effective than a miniscule sigh of breath. Tears and feelings have been hard to get. It's like even though I could be in pain, or sorrow, or guilt, it doesn't affect me as much. As though the heart that was once stone, eventually began to erode and dullen after clashing with chains, knives, hammers, the ground, and meteors.
It hurts that I can't feel when I want to feel, or that I can't share what I want to feel. It's frustrating. Truly. And I can't keep people with me, or people can't stay with me even in times where I need them the most, but just can't show or say it.
Calling, roll, but my class is empty. Calling roles, but the roles are empty.
Sigh.