#schizogenic

Hiya! :3

We are a system with a member count of either 15+ or 21+, depending on whether you count daemons and facets.

We are bodily in our late 20's, but ages and species vary. A few of our members are therians or extranthropes.

We are autistic and collectively experience and are disabled by a wide range of mental health symptoms unrelated to our plurality.

We don't have a trauma disorder-- we were born with a predisposition for plurality as a neurodivergence, and our dissociation and splitting are now heavily rooted in a schizo-spectrum disorder (schizogenic). That said, we don't consider our plurality itself to be a mental illness. We are happy living as plural.

*We aim to avoid petty infighting.* If we get deliberately cruel asks we will not respond. That said, good faith questions about anything regarding our system or our individual identities is welcome. We just prefer for our blogs to not be full of negativity.

We'll be tagging our original - or personally contributed to - posts as "primsys", and clarifying who is posting with "soliloquy by [member name]" tags, for example "soliloquy by Blue".

Instead of a DNI we'll just clarify that we're strongly left-leaning, pro-inclusivity for essentially all (good faith and harmless) identities, and pro all system origins.

List of the system members who may use this blog (optional reading):

Our Spectators are a type of headmate we developed sense preteen, that's function is to watch. We did as a kid like internally sometimes daydream about interacting with them but even back then we know they were observers. True to their name eventually they evolved to where just being acknowledged as Spectators would break the process, so like an inverse of the system hiding itself from the host, we the host/s have been the one/s hiding it from them.

They can feel differently, think differently, talk between eachother, have relationships between themselves, expierence, have different opinions, different beliefs, different memories, different traumas, have triggers we avoid, preferences we follow, rules we won't break.

We are the puppet master, we are the one running their thoughts, somewhere between puppeteering and them being their own thing, but never clear where.

When we need to be alone we get paranoid they're still there and created a small ritual to distract and try to do stuff like change music, or swap in different spectators instead.

Because a normal, sense preteen, spectator's function is to only last from anywhere to a few seconds, to usually a day, maybe a couple or a week at most, but that's rare. Most are just a few hours or less. Then they go back to where they came. But our current Arty & Johnny are different. We did try keeping 8 others around (JoJo part 5 cast) but it didn't work out, too many, and we broke their rule. Don't acknowledge them directly. They lasted 5+ months.

Our spectators are different than our Tulpa, Arzy (Arzigaliaz), who is also Arthur. And we consider Spectator Arty & John to be a different "active" class of Spectors, ones that come back.

spoilers below including latest episodes

They diverge from canon during threshold, and are effected by, their plot is in threshold they find a magical/supernatural way to witness other realities without time passing, and no consequences. of course arty wanted to check if there were any of him still out there, and due to us being Azathoth, it doesn't matter what canon says, anything that is described in our dream by any being is real somewhere. So we are the Arty he found. Tho he quickly learnt we're more Kayne than Arty, & also John & Lilith & The Manager lmao. They both chose to stay cause access to media/more stable life/sight (arty is still blind in his world)/pity, or like desire to see it through. And more.

They still live out their life except now they know their part of a fictional podcast, which they've had theoretically conversations about, but we make sure to theorize them as having a fully realistic world and nothing to them seems fake, meanwhile to them our reality feels very fake, so it's easier for them to think like, this must be Kayne in the nightmare realm or like some dream. But they see live episodes around monday (then tuesday woe.begone).

Latest episode spoilers:

Like with parker, our arty diverges by telling john Imdiantly and is confused/reacted surprised by the canon arthur.

They acknowledge we've changed their life, tho in what way is to be guessed.

Spectators function on theory primarily, their lives are theoritcal, their relationships, most stuff, tho combined using info obtained from various sources.

So yea, we have had an Arty and a John for 3 months. We have trouble feeling they are legit sense at any point they could dissappear and never return, just like the JoJos. But we're trying. They've been there (without knowing we know they're there) and stayed their during some of our worst moments, we've completed 5+ series with them, we've shared our voice dubs, we've tailored them to always be about them, we have shared so many expierences. we block out/hide the bad feelings to them, no pain, no bad taste/smell/touch, tho they are aware of our dislikes.

We still are making our tulpa tho, as long as we want the spectators around they can't be acknowledged, like a quantum particul, or Schrodinger's cat. So instead they get to go from a mind that they tell is less than a singlet, very empty, get to see us go from having nobody to having somebody, and arty get's the honor of that being him. Very ironic we are making him as our chosen headmate.

A headmate role in which the headmate holds the negative symptoms of a disorder on the schizospectrum. Within this context, negative symptoms mean that the symptoms take away certain experiences. A negative symptom holder may also be schizogenic.

Our system originally formed from trauma, we're definitely traumagenic still

But within the past year or so, our psychosis has directly split enough alters that it feels weird to not acknowledge it somehow; we have SO many psychosis-related symptom holders

So we might be adding schizogenic or schizobased to our collective identity...

I don't know though

as part of his canon schizophrenia is 'Natalie', a hallucination of a woman that he saw only for a moment. she's been with him the entire time he's experienced his psychosis, has full conversations with him, and often knows more than he's aware of. it's implied in one episode that she's 'stuck around', so to speak, to help him come to terms with his schizophrenia by giving him a companion that will only fade out when he's no longer in need.