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9th of July 2023

I haven’t been reading as much lately, which I find hard. But I do have a full time job and other hobbies and I also need a lot of sleep.

Anyways, this is one of the books I’m currently reading. It’s called Witch King by Martha Wells, and it’s such a pretty hardcover!! My Illumcrate subscription may cost a lot of money, but the books are always so pretty.

Have a great week!

Are there any discord server on Vampire Knight, aside from teamcoexistence (the only one that I know of and I’m already trying to get in) ? Whether for RP or for simply discussing the disaster series that we both love and hate equally? Let me know or better yet, send me an invite please ! ^^

Think your the #1 Jily shipper? Well your not. It’s in my mind, no doubt, no one other than Sirius Black-

At first Sirius hated Lily. She was stuck up brat, who didn’t step a toe out of line. She was a heartless bitch who didn’t give a shit about his best friends feelings. She would turn down James each and everytime, not realizing how much pain she was causing him. Of course, he thought they would be a great couple, if she would try to see the real James underneath.

But then in sixth year, Lily and Sirius became friends, after a certain incident where none of his friends would talk to him. They had similar sibling problems and understood each other perfectly. He asked her why she turned James down so many times, and she told him. At that time she hadn’t any genuine feelings about him, and she thought in the end it wouldn’t work out for them, and even though each time she turned him down she saw the pain flashing through his hazel eyes, he would have gotten even more hurt is she broke up with him. ‘She isn’t so bad’ Sirius thought.

Being mindless is fun but being dumb is scary. If I'm mindless I'm still pliable, easily controlled, submissive, etc which all play well with most of my kinks. But something that will make me uncomfy unless I A) know you really well B) am really comfortable / feel safe or C) am really tipsy is telling me to "dumb down".

Like do I enjoy IQ reduction play? Yes with my dom of many years who i trust. That's about it. We have enough stupid people wandering around in the world (especially in the U.S.) and furthermore it's already hard enough for me to remember solutions to math problems I learned in high-school (which is a scary enough thought when I'm not horny). I don't want to even risk actually becoming less intelligent as a result of practicing and pretending to be stupid. There is also a bunch of historical baggage for me and that which I will not get into.

However, sometimes it can in fact be fun. But being mindless on the other hand is something that we will do naturally. Our body forces us to periodically because we would probably explode otherwise. Obviously I kid but you get what I mean. I can be nice and mindless for my mistress and nothing risks getting lost. Nothing changes about me long term, I'm just making a conscious choice to focus on my mental health for a chosen period of time.

Favourite colour: pink and purple

Currently reading: Siege and Storm by Leigh Bardugo, the second book in the Grisha trilogy

Last song: Bruises - Henri PFR, Madism LONO

Last series: The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills (don’t judge, I love reality tv)

Last film: A simple favor (loved it!)

Sweet, savoury or spicy? Sweet 100%

Craving: a food craving? probably fries (but ‘frietkot’ fries)

Tea or coffee: I actually like both! I mostly drink coffee, but I also have a tea collection

Currently working on: studying for my second to last resit (chemical process technology)