There’s something really fascinating about this persistent dynamic in Sam and Cas’s relationship (bonus, from 11x14, which puts a dark spin on the pattern just after this moment with some noncon Casifer soulfisting:)

Sign ups for the fifth Sam Winchester Big Bang start on September 12th!

Yes, that’s right! Supernatural may be launching into its fifteenth season but here at SWBB HQ we’re turning a sprightly five. If you want to get involved with the internet’s best, shinest, Sam-centric all-ship-friendly (gen-fic-friendly) fanworks extravaGANZA then you’re in the right place and better still, at the right time. Signups for both writers and artists will open on September 12th! That’s very soon indeed!

As the name suggests, fics for this challenge should focus on Sam as the primary character. You can choose to write a mini (5k+) or a big bang (15k+). Signups will close on 4 November, rough drafts are due on 25 November and artist claims will be on 30 November. Fics will start posting on 13 January 2020.

“It's something that was necessary for me to do in the wake of my mother's death - to pursue a sense of peace and serenity in spite of suffering.” 

imagine this motherless child growing up side by side with monster hunts and a depressed alcoholic father and guns everywhere, going to stanford for peace and serenity and safety at last, because “there's so much evil out there in the world dean, I feel like I could drown in it,” but he doesn’t, he perseveres and forgives and tries to make it better. 

“As a kid, of course, I had to construct some kind of narrative. [...] There's such a discrepancy between my time and relationship with her, and my desire to know her and be with her.” 

picture sam, never having known his mother, kneeling in front of her grave, tears in his eyes, saying i love you mom. picture him years later, kissing his fingers then touching her headstone. 

“It was so terrifying to encounter death and have to reconcile that, and express love, for someone so unfamiliar. Her death was so devastating to me because of the vacancy within me.”