#samichi

A lot has happened since my last (original) post.

I now work as a cashier and sometimes in pharmacy. I like someone, but am not exactly sure how he feels about me. I've also dwindled down on smoking as of yesterday. I've had 5 cigarettes since yesterday morning.

I've been doing pretty well, but I want so much more. I deserve so much more. I deserve a job that I absolutely love that actually pays well AND gives me my weekends back. I deserve to love without fear and be loved in return. And right now, I really could use a cigarette, but you know what? I could really use my lungs.

I've really been exploring my options with the whole job thing. I've applied at a couple of different places that pay well and would give me my weekends back. I'm really excited about both opportunities, one more than the other to be honest, though. One of the opportunities was a job I previously held through a temp service. I loved it there, but it was temporary. I can honestly say that if I were to win the lottery I would continue to work at that place because that's how much I loved it. I can't really say that about my current job.

I learned a new word while I was at work yesterday. :)

Smegma.

As defined by Dictionary.com:

"–noun

a thick, cheeselike, sebaceous secretion that collects beneath the foreskin or around the clitoris. "

This made me laugh. Quite a bit.