No one has a firmer hold on you than a person who doesn’t want you but will not let you go. The sharpest claws disguised as the dullest edges. While everyone around you says “just leave”. But you can’t because there’s still a chance that they’ll want you after all. but just as sure as the sun will rise in the east,their mind will not change, and you deserve better. They don’t want to have you but don’t want to lose you and both of those things can’t be true at once. But you let them, you make exceptions. so you sit in the middle, the two of you, while you are sure and they’re not. Because when someone doesn’t want you “maybe”will never be yes and it hurts a lot less than no. so you hold on to the maybe like a kid on monkey bars with blistered hands and You are firm but you are hurting and the only person you can choose to let go, to land on the ground with two feet is you. And just as sure that the sun will set in the West, you hurt. You wonder what would have happened if you had held on a little bit longer but in the same way they were never sure with you, they will never be sure without you either.
You are the one that gets to be sure that you made the right choice.
-josiebalka
