“ you weren’t there! i needed you! ” ( mj! 🥰 )
he had promised her that he would see her sing tonight and despite how much he had sworn up and down that his support was something she could count on … here he is an HOUR LATE and drenched . it’s been a miserable night ; and it shows on him . WORST OF ALL , ben hadn’t been able to prepare himself for the guilt . glancing up at the redhead , the clone watched her reaction for a long moment before tightening the grip on the flowers ( battered and bruised from the hard rain he had ran through to get there ) staring down at them for a long moment before dropping his arm . it broke his heart ; letting mj down like this . “ i … i really tried to make it — you … you gotta believe me . ” this was always his problem , the reason why all his other past relationships had failed as badly as they had . much like his carbon template — work came first , he disappeared , he kept too much to himself , he was absent . and when mj needed him to be there for him ——— now was he just doomed to fall back into that pattern again ? was that going to make mj resent him and turn what they were beginning to have sour ? ben took in a deep breath when he felt his throat tightened at the thought . “ mary jane … ” for a moment he pauses , angry at himself for his struggle between duty and desire . all he wanted was to be NORMAL — to spend his nights with mj in her apartment peeking over a book to look at her as she studied . just benjamin rielly and mary jane watson . together . that’s all he wanted there to be . but sometimes it wasn’t about what he wanted . this was about what he had to do . the city needed him — that wasn’t something he could ignore for selfish reasons . a hand soon then reached up for mj’s ; hesitant , slow , and a tad needy. “ please let me makes this up to you ? ”
