#s4e08

Hank: You know, I used to worry too. But then I realized, why worry? And look at me now.

Lacey: That's your advice, "Why worry?"

Hank: And look at me now.

So Lucien got himself a gun and obviously he can use it...I’ll try to keep in mind never to cross him because “angry Lucien” is really scary.

Now we have Major Alderton threatening Mei Lin, Lucien’s daughter and Jean

Not even 5 minutes and I’m already dead

Alderton has plans for our favourite country doctor. He wants him to join the Army once again for the war in Indochina and Lucien isn’t that kind of man anymore.

Oh look look Sergeant Hannam is back and Alderton is dead...Lucien’s hand is full of blood, though and he fired the gun...

Why does he leave the crime scene? Lucien what are you thinking? I get it...he’s worried for his wife but it doesn’t look like the great idea to me

Back at the house my brave Jean goes to open the door with Lucien. They are both trying to protect Mei Lin and I’m sure Jean is there to protect Lucien should he need it!

Oh now things are getting worse by the minute for Lucien, of course Frank asks about the shooting 🙄

Who’s this DI Sullivan, then? And why is he there?

Back to Mei Lin’s room...what?! Well, of course they find the murder weapon in her mattress They’re trying to frame Lucien! Come on anyone can see that!! Ohhh my poor Lucien...treated like some common criminal.

The scene moves back to the house and we can see Jean and Mei Lin in the sunroom. Jean is an angel but Mei Lin’s presence is really uncomfortable to witness there. I’ve come to think of the sunroom as Jean’s kind of sanctuary and seeing her face when she hears the question “do you hate me?”leave the other woman’s mouth...well my poor heart....what kind of question is this?

And as if that were not enough, Jean is also attacked by Hannam himself! I, for sure, was more scared then she was because I could have thought of anything to say to him apart from “you should make an appointment” she is so brave and determined to protect Lucien! I’ve never seen a love like this!

Charlie calls Jean because now Lucien is in jail and being the “son” that he is for them he just knows naturally what the Doc needs and what he needs is Jean ❤️

The scene with Lucien behind the bars was beautiful (I wouldn’t know how else to describe it) . She knows him so well that she brings him the chalk to distract him (so that he can work on the case) and he’s worried that Hannam could have hurt her. “I’m sorry about everything” he says (such a powerful meaning in so very few words) and then those hands reaching for her...no words needed!

The little piece with Alice barging in because she wants to speak with Lucien. That woman definitely knows what she wants!

Frank doesn’t seem to trust Sullivan...well that’ll make two of us now!

Charlie trusting Lucien when he asks him to believe in him what a wonderful wonderful thing!

Trying to solve his own case while he’s staying in the cell behind the bars with the chalk and the bed as a blackboard is so much Lucien’s style!

So now Alderton was killed with a piece of the telescope... that was a surprise!

Ohhh now we discover that Lucien killed two men during his service and Sullivan asks how he could leave everything behind. “I love what I do”...is Lucien’s reply and that he surely does!

Anyway, it seems to me that Lucien is too clever to trust this Sullivan guy who wants Lucien to get some sleep! You don’t know him at all! Lucien Blake does not sleep! 😂

Jean and her plan to protect Mei Lin and herself by going at the Colonists’ club with Cec is brilliant and we can also hear Mei Lin speaking about the occupation.

What is she doing at the police station now? Does anyone know where she is?

Omg now she’s just dropped the bomb! Mei Lin had an affair with Alderton before the war whaaattt??!!!

Soon followed by bomb no. 2 “Lucien doesn’t love me, not anymore”... I mean it’s not a surprise but having someone saying it out loud it just makes it more real. The thing is, I don’t think that he doesn’t love her, because I’m sure he does. But it’s not the all encompassing romantic passionate love he feels for her. He’s changed and so has she. They are now two strangers with a shared past. A past that weights heavily on both of them, they love one another but it’s more “affection” than romantic love and Mei Lin makes sure to point that out! Then she confesses, she wants to save Lucien as he saved her when he put her and their daughter on the boat. She knows that if Lucien is free, he has probably more chances to solve the case.

In the meantime we are transported back to Lucien study with Rose, Charlie, Jean and Alice all engaged in a brainstorming session about the case.

Lucien at the end sends everyone out of the house and the he even has the nerve to try with Jean. “Get yourself to the club! I’m staying here” that’s all she answers and he accepts that. She doesn’t want to leave him. They both know Hannam is coming!

And of course he comes. Jean even offers him a cup of tea and her face when Lucien reveals that Mei Lin had been unfaithful to himself worth 10 Oscars!

I knew this Sullivan guy was no good...Mei Lin hanging from that window was really scary I honestly thought the worst!

So at the end it was Sullivan and Lucien figures all that out and then bang... Hannam comes and it’s a bloody awful mess in a span of a few seconds.

Lucien explains the camp experience to Mei Lin over a cup of tea and the reasons why Derek hated Lucien so much.

Lucien’s facial expression and his eyes full of tears when Mei Lin leaves the table to go outside are the death of me...it’s just a couple of seconds but there are so many different, conflicting feelings in there and then Mei Lin is going away.

Jean says her goodbyes and then becomes uncomfortable witnessing Lucien and Mei Lin’s goodbye...I loved how she twists her hands!

And then....well...are there any words to describe what comes after?

That kiss OMG... I just can’t! So beautiful, so passionate ❤️ I wonder if the car has already reached the end of the drive when they kiss

Aaannndddd Jean I’m talking to you now...you’ve just kissed a married man on the front lawn!

AAAAAHHHHHH!!!

And then she walks back to the house and he calls her and I swear I got worried for those 3 seconds that Lucien needs to take those 2 steps toward her and then he goes straight through my heart “there’s something I need to ask you” and my heart is so happy I’m still crying and grinning like a fool