Hey- I promise I'm gonna be okay, we're actually too sleepy for our emotions to process properly- but something brought up some bad memories and some grief and I kinda want a pick-me-up. If you're up and feel like it, I think our ask is open, so you guys can ask me stuff or tell me things. Hell, I'd love the excuse to ramble about how much I love Makoto.
But there's absolutely no obligation! I want to make that clear. I'm just dealing with a little bit of the grief from my own unique angle- the angle of someone who understands and embodies the inevitability of what caused such grief, but nonetheless feels the void from knowing he can't stop it. It's a weird, not quite numb but not exactly emotional feeling? But I'm used to feeling strange when I have unfamiliar feelings.
Above all, please take care of yourselves- I'll be doing that too. I'm gonna start getting us ready to at least get in an hour or two worth of sleep- we haven't gotten any since a post-work nap at like 7 PM, and it's almost 9 AM now.