#running fast

How has it been a year already?

How has it been so long,

And doesn't feel less small?

If a year has passed, i wonder, how many times have I crossed that mind of yours?

Once, twice, hundred times?

Or maybe never.

I feel dumb.

Dumb for thinking about you more than once,

I know i shouldn't-

Then why do i?!

It's the way you used your words to calm me, or was it just to get to me?

Or the way you held me,when i cried.

And when i met your eyes, it was that damned smile.

Should i mention that nickname you called me?

"My brightest star", that is what you told me.

It has been a year,a lot has happend

Now i'm elsewhere, there i belong.

You have such a power over me, i hate it-

by bravestyles

Looking back, Harry can differentiate the stages of it. It started with conscious eating, with trying to know exactly what was in his food and not wanting to put garbage into his body. Gradually, he started to work out more. And then came the restricting, where he slowly reeled back on carbs and fatty foods and sugar. But it wasn't too bad yet. All it was was thinking extra hard about his food choices and avoiding certain things. It was okay.

Eventually, it stopped being okay.

or, Harry struggles with an eating disorder.

Words: 29088, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: One Direction (Band)

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M

Characters: Harry Styles, Louis Tomlinson, Zayn Malik, Liam Payne, Niall Horan, Gemma Styles, Anne Cox, Robin Twist, Nick Grimshaw

Relationships: Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson

Additional Tags: Eating Disorders, Anorexia, Panic Attacks, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Eventual Happy Ending, Fainting, Crying

10:57 PM EDT June 7, 2019:

Graffin and Hetson - "Running Fast\" From the Soundtrack album   Desperate Teenage Lovedolls (1984)

Last song scrobbled from iTunes at Last\.fm

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