.songs that hit home.
--Every word of the song has been my prayer at some point in the last six months. Loneliness. No plans. Doubt. A feeling that things will never change. Knowing that all I want could still never satisfy me. Feeling defeated, yet clinging to the hope, a prayer: “Let me know that You hear me, let me know Your touch, let me know that You love me, let that be enough.”
2. “Anymore of This” by Mindy Smith
-- I also related to every word of this song. As I leave the college student season of life, I look back and regret all I missed out on, often because I was stressed and anxious. I didn’t appreciate and enjoy my life like I could have. And I don’t want anymore of that. “I don’t want to miss anymore.” It hurts to regret, but I can learn from it. And I did have positive experiences too, but I tend to regret and be hard on myself, and that’s not good either.
3. “Lie Awake and Dream” by Runaway Symphony
--I relate to this song in a few ways, but interestingly, this is a song I sort of anticipate relating to.
“Oftentimes when I close my eyes, I lie awake and dream of home where Mom and Dad used to laugh.”
In a way, I’m still a kid-- I still feel like one anyway. I still live at home. I’m just beginning to really enter “the real world,” and soon I’ll be on my own. One day, this day will be looked upon in fond memory, and I may be homesick for it. I need to enjoy every moment, rather than pining for what I wish it could be.
“I’ve been searching high and low to find some heat in this freezing cold.... This house where I stay, it could never be my home. Dear Lord, I just pray I don’t want to live alone.”
I anticipate this will be my next struggle. Young adulthood. Trying to figure it out and find my place as I become more independent of my family and continue to fight for faith to believe that God has a plan for my relationships and a reason for my loneliness.
