#ruination

ohh, a good question!! i do love extreme fantasies, haha. i like it both mean and sweet. 🤭 extreme is… HM. you can always check my f-list!

but, well, i wanna be force fattened by a group of mean feeders and paraded around as a disgusting pet. 🤤 i would want them to ruin me in every wayyy. body completely buried in fat, skin greasy and blotchy, hair greasy. i’d be unable to stop gooning, completely dependant on them, forced to watch as they have fun and no one touches me… they would push me to my limits always, publicly humiliate me, force me into too-tight clothes… god. they’d make me eat foods that upset my tummy so i’m always bloated and gassy from both ends. i’d have to communicate with oinks and woofs. they’d remind me i used to be a feeder, that i got what was coming for trying to fatten other people up. they’d make me into the ugly blob of anyone’s nightmares, and i’m too much of a fat freak to not get off on it 🫣

Before and after

Am I ruined enough yet?

I have been wanting to draw Genya Safin sooooo badly, but I wanted to wait until I could use a Goddess-esque prompt. This one is it!

I worked on this one for about an hour and forty five minutes. Which I still use I could have spent more time on this, but I had a horrible day. I thought it was going to be a great day with how I felt in the morning. Then my DUMB ASS self decided to be a responsible adult and go to work. That’s when things went into the shitter.

I spent the first hour under my desk crying. Cannot say I have ever had that happen before. At school? Maybe, but a fucking JOB??? With “adults”? Ugh.

I digress…

I am getting to where I want to add color to this but I am telling myself that I am only allowed to do that once I redraw these on a canvas. (Or paint them.)

Edit: forgot to add the artist I referenced for this photo: @mana.phobia (on IG) per the Pinterest post because I do not have the ‘gram no more.

I love the inside patterns as well!

But that's not all! The book sleeves themselves have unique artwork inside! Ambessa has the Medarda family portrait featuring baby Mel and Kino while Ruination has Viego and Kalista!