#rtht

this all started with california dreamin' (mamas & papas) and i am biting and shaking things and people. so with CIFL. it's so. well it's on the level of having santa monica (everclear) on my donny playlist. and the conundrum of 'do i have him and ellie go to california at some point'... nevertheless. the whole [noah kahan voice] 'i would leave if only i could find a reason' of it all and yearning to go. sure it IS a reason to go if he's truly going to pursue his dreams and makes some damn films, but clearly there's still something holding him back. whether or not that's a false hope/optimism that ellie will come back, that ends up not being false, who's to say. but nevertheless the glitz and glamour and being more than what he already is (being someone people want) are all contained in the california.

meanwhile for RtHT, it's the opposite ideal. well opposite ideal for Bill. he grew up there and while he's fond of it in That way, and by proxy his friends and family who still live there, HIS need to get out and be someone people want was so much stronger than anything that could keep him tied to california. not that he doesn't love his closest people, and not that he wants to undermine them as people or undermine his love for him, but !! the independence issues and in HIS own way wanting to be more than what he is. and of course he's not going to bat an eye at the place once he's met lucille and harry and making a life with them on the other side of the country becomes more enticing. that is until visits become a part of that life since bill can't crawl away from his past, nor his loved ones, so he has to pay extra to take that emotional baggage on as a carry-on. though he's certainly not going to deprive hannah of her family or even opportunities to further herself (if she so chose) just because he needed a change of scenery and loved what it became.

DOP.) i've been thinking about these guys the least lately but. i do keep thinking i need to work on the pachyderms' unreleased anthology. like i already have two or three titles lined up so. i need to write more. maybe get some inspiration from adding more music to their playlist

RtHT.) lately i've mostly just been on my 'what face do i use for hannah' debate and this week i am considering martha plimpton. like i think she's the right about of like. IDK how to put it. i guess Adjacent to bill (as played by ad-rock) and like. i can see an image of harry pushing her fluffy bangs out of the way to kiss her forehead. also i really need to get back into thinking about the geller-klein family again because i really liked where i got to in my moment of focusing on them more than the rest of the story, and i miss the baby girlies